hate

I always get the feeling that someone loathes me , but ...

Sigh , been getting alot of that in my new church lately , i keep on thinking that people are wanting me out or ..


CRAP LAR , i dont know what to do , i dont have real friends to look to in need , mostly i just play and talk with them , but i never share bad times .

I've been praying for a friend i guess , but , i guess i haVe to pray harder .

i guess ...

i guess...

I hate myself , thats the truth on what i think about myself , i mean , my BEST FRIEND , doesnt bother about me at all ...

i sound like a whiny girl dont i ? geez , i need help , my only hope is by reading the bible , but i always FFK it .

Well , at least its not as bad as CMC , where my cellgroup people actually add oil into the fire .