Cf .

It's my third day at CF this year...which is really baddd...We had Cf in 4Dahlia which was really dusty , with one of the fans malfunctioning , I couldn't do anything properly other than coughing due to my sensitivity to dust . . . Later on , they celebrated the birthdays of the March babies . . . I didn't want to go out at first , until Ben called out my name . . . Later had cell group with Mercedes and some new people .

I'm so disappointed with myself lately la... That annoying personality of mine is back , and I just want to apologize to Joseph , Ivan , Huey Wern , Cj , Kheng and some other church people for my annoying-ness . . . The low-self esteem didn't come back though , camp did have some permanent effects on me I guess . . .

Anyway , I finally found the courage yesterday to share the "gospel" with the "organization" and guess what...I FAILED . I did the same mistake which I thought I would never do : I was primarily focusing on HELL . That and some of my hypocrisy . . . Kavin didn't really like it , Wei Han thought it was annoying , Keith was sleeping . I'm sorry lord . . . I Failed...Big time .


And then there's the story about her . Yes , this idiotic feeling of mine on this girl I recently met . Gosh , I seriously want to forget this , but I cant help to think about ....

Lastly , I'm getting corrupted . Yes , I'm not that clean as people expect me to be anymore , the friends I hang out with somehow talk about it all day , even some of my church friends have succumbed to the corruption and they were really my only source of friends who never talks about these sorts of stuff . I never found this problem last year as I had friends who were girls in my class...But now... Sigh....