When everything starts to fall apart .

God never let's me down . The sermon today is somehow relevant to what I'm going through right now .

Well , the apathy is still there , the broken friendships are still here ... But I know it's being fixed .

All my discouragements , my delusions ...are all weapons of the enemy , I was the one who let my guard down , thus getting hit by all this . Not him , for God is not the author of confusion . . .

Day by day , my faith grows thinner , my doubts grew . . . But the tiny flame still burning within me is always the strongest ...

I'm really sorry Joseph , you were the only friend I had who could understand me , who bothered to listen to my whining , who tried so hard to encourage me . But I let you down , when you broke down , I added oil into the fire . I'm so sorry...

I'm so sorry Sabrina , for teasing you that day , for acting like an arrogant snob to you . Thank you too , for giving me a hard knock on my head yesterday .

I know that I've hurt many more people in my depression . I'm sorry too .

Had brunch with the Youth in McD's just now . Then the Catholic thing was brought up...Turns out that one of HueyWern's friends attended SIC , a catholic church . She was mad and was like :"WTH?! I told her not to believe in all this..." Her friend who was her "sheep" told her that she saw something new in this church . . . For once , I somehow defended the Catholic church , and it's not just because that's the same church which the girl who I'm having a crush on is there...(How many more clues to you guys need ?!) Well , I told HueyWern to check out Romans 14... But one thing my Catholic friends did not tell me is that we share a different bible . . .HueyLin objected ... Well . . . Romans 14 guys...

Sam , if you're reading this , I'm sorry .