My Saviour lives .

It's safe to blog now...Okay , after I came back , I went to my computer and took a long time to upload the pictures to Facebook .

After that , it was Dota all the way with Gavin .

Unlike some others , I somehow have the ability to KNOW my mistakes , BUT not being able or not wanting to correct it . Which sucks really .

The friends in my class . . . They might be a fun bunch , but they are still people with hearts hurting really badly . How do I know this ? Well , instead of hanging out with your friends and just plain talking about Video Games and stuff...Why not go deep some times , know more about them... You'll be surprised about how hurt some people really are .


I've been backsliding ALOT lately , ever since that "Crush" thing started , I let down my shield , which caused more problems to come , which eventually effected my faith . But , there's always something that would be there to pull you back to daddy dearest . For me , it would be Music . Since Ivan and Daniel Joseph are busy ( And they happen to be the two main big influence to me ... along with someone else....you know who you are , and you should know how much you have impacted me ) I wouldn't really count on people to encourage me . But honestly , the main thing , that is actually THE base of my whole life is HIM . Without him , I wouldn't be who I am now . I am FAR from perfect , seriously , I look innocent , quiet , anti-violent , but that's just because you don't know me well enough .

I need a revolution , If I go on with how I am currently am , I'm doomed .
I need another Cf Camp . . . Ironically , the camp where I actually think that I grew spiritually the most was from Cf Camp...Even though I never liked them .

Something inside of me just feels like , taking up my guitar (Which I didn't touch for a few days now ) and play some random chords , and start praising him , which I can't however , since I only know 3 chords .

I need... SOMEONE , whom I can talk to . It can't be JoJo or Ivan , it just feels awkward spilling out everything to people who are wayy older than you .

See , I'm not like the most of you . When you guys get mad , you "Mini-explode" for awhile , then make up for what happened , and forgive and forget . But for me , I would just accept everything you say , even if you say that I have a face problem , I would just accept it , and keep it inside of me for a long long time . Like when I was young , my mother called me a F***ing kid , which I took so hard , that until now , I still haven't forgot about it . I KEEP things inside of me , I might not explode on the spot when you get me pissed off , but when I just got too much , I just boom really badly compared to the others . I always look at the bad side of things first . Now that's my problem .

But...Amazing love...how can it be ? That you my king would die for me .

I'm starting to change my views on this "crush" thing . Right now , it's not a crush , it's more like , admiration . Tambah sedikit "she looks awesome" . =P .



I just found out that my neighbor has a blog ?! I've been living across the street for about 10 years ? Wow , I never knew most of my neighbors...Some of them are just plain scary AND ....