Of narcissist's and retards .

This is going to be an explosive post , to dear Rachel Cheng .

Well , I met her in CF camp 09 ' . We didn't really know each other well before that . All I knew about her was that ALOT of people didn't like her . Since she was an active CFer , I decided to trust her anyway , since there was nothing much about her that made me hate her or anything...YET .

So one day , a super hyped up me which just arrived home after a 5-day trip to Kuching , saw her online having the PM which said :" Taaa long hair " .
I laughed at her , I teased her , she got pissed . She has every right to get mad , but I said I was sorry oh so many times , but I only got one reply :" Some things just can't be taken back , and that's one of the things "
And you even did something to your dear "Father" , I know him quite well okay ? When his mood swings to emo , something really big must have happened .

Seriously ? What on earth is your problem ? You used to tell me how much you've tried to gain the forgiveness for your past mistakes , and now , a simple thing like this , you tell me that it's UNFORGIVABLE ? Ish . Okay , you don't want to forgive me , fine . BUT , why on earth did you have to shoot at Daniel Joseph ? I don't know whether it's because of me or whatever , but what the heck is wrong with you ?! We're talking about Daniel Joseph here , one of the nicest guy you will ever meet in the whole school . First , you're condemning me to hell because I stole a cookie from the cookie jar , next , you condemn the person who kept asking me to chill and to love you(as a sister) and a friend who cares about you ? That's too much Rachel .

And don't give me this bull about you getting angry , since you said :" DROP THE TOPIC ! I get angry you see " .

HAHA , You're talking to a guy who actually took up a knife to chase his sister , who fought back with his mother and grandmother (physically) , who actually threw stuff at people (Heavy stuff) out of anger . I'm not proud of what I've done before , I've been trying so hard to keep my cool now of days , but if you really want to see who can get more devastating when they're provoked .


And please lah , you're an Angsanian , you're supposed to be smart and reasonable . But all you ever said in that argument was what a lala dude would have said (except you spelled them right , that , I have to give you credit for ) . Giving me this load of pure nonsense :" SO ?! I HIGH ON SUGAR AND I KILL SOMEONE , LATER ON I REGRET IT OR DIDN'T MEAN IT ...HOW AH?" Oh puh-leez . This is seriously dumb example ,if you're trying to judge me by God's standards ( All sin are the same . ) But if you were to judge by that , you would be judging yourself too , since , WE ALL HAVE SINNED . But if you were trying to judge by the Court-ish way , you phail too . Seriously , making fun of someone and teasing someone is two very different things under the law . Like the paradox of our time says , we get more degrees , but we lose our common sense .


I'm not even going to step into CF this year anymore , all thanks to you and your narcissism . There wasn't even supposed to be divisions in a place where Christians fellowship . They already discouraged me so much , and now after this , I HAVE ENOUGH . Go ahead , go ask Weng Soon , Jamie , Wesley , Nam Yang , Samantha , David or whatever to go whack me inside the toilet or whatever , do I look like I care anymore ? It's like I'm being silently chased out of the Cf , with a big "You're aren't welcomed here" everytime I TRY hanging out with you people .

I still apologize for what I've said that night , how you reacted to it is just plain unacceptable .



It's really funny how it's hard for us as believers to get along , when we were supposed to love each other .