Oh what a surprise .

I had so many things in my mind to blog about when I booted up my computer , and then I read the recent comments on my Cbox .

Wow .

First point that I should point out : It's just a crush . Sheesh weih , I'm sorry if she's been complaining about me or anything .

Why am I not freaking out or lambasting anyone right now ? Weird right ? Only Chin Seng know's why .

:)

Eheheheh .

Anyway , school has been hectic again , yes , again . Firstly , I fell ill on Tuesday .
Secondly , Pn Norlia and I almost had a religious "debate" .
First , she started labelling Christianity under...Lain-lain . THEN , she asked who in my class were Christians , so I lifted up my hand , then she...Okay let me put this up to a dialog ...

Pn.Norlia : Can I ask you a question Declan ?
Me: Sure , go ahead.
Pn.Norlia : Who's the founder of Christianity ?
Me : Umm , Jesus ?(Not too sure about this one , but HE is the main person along with the father right? )
Pn.Norlia : Where did it start ?
Me : Jerusalem???(It was actually Bethlehem as corrected by Eu Liang)
Pn.Norlia : But there aren't any Christmas trees in Jerusalem , how come on Christmas you set up your Christmas tree's as tradition .
Me + Eu Liang : That tradition was actually added in by some westerners (We think) , and the thing about presents and all were started by Saint Nicholas . The Bible never mentioned anything about Christmas tree's....

She asked it as if she were QUESTIONING me .
Wow .

Then there was Cf's AGM today , it was okay...But the fact that people like Jack , Elaine , Tian Xiong , Daniel Joseph and Wai Yan are leaving is really saddening , I mean , who's gonna drag me to CF now ?! lol .

Then there's grading tomorrow , and my back aches like crap .

Anti-biotics...Oh man...Unlike Karina , mine didn't come with the amazing bubble wrap , instead , there's a picture of the Malaysian flag there . Sheesh.

There's a bitter taste in my mouth that just won't go away . YEEEESH !

I've got more trouble sleeping now , and I overcame it with....COFFEE .

My body's ultimate sensitivity to caffeine really did good to me , with just a little gulp of coffee (1/4) , I managed to make up for 4 hours of sleep and was hyper throughout the whole day !

My dad basically killed off my motivation to study when he pulled back the 6A-Macbook deal , instead , he's ordering himself one . According to him , I would only need it in college , and if I got one now , I would regret .

Next . We all know how hard it is for me to push myself to CF , well , I started doubting a little , being arrogant and all...Then , HE showed me 2 things :
1. A paranormal investigation which shook me to the core on the History Channel
2. A movie called "The Reaping" , which is a horror movie , which had something to do with Satanists and plagues and priests .

It definitely showed me how much he has done for me to protect me from all those , considering the fact that I feared those things ALOT when I was a child , and he helped me to overcome it ...

Life's been a mess lately , a huge one . With low-self-esteem coming around the corner , along with my trials and PMR examinations , I have no idea whether I can take all of it . . . AND with all THESE things happening right now . . . I'm so lost .



Oh screw this .


I'm glad that it's over .


I'm gonna accept the fact the fact that I'm a useless pariah dog okay ? All thanks to you ...


I feel like swearing .

Bloody hell....

Oh shoot ! I just did .