The pain .

My parents are out for a week .
My sister is always either asleep or out .
No tuition for a week .
I'm not supposed to be online too .
I tried studying , but there's something stopping me from doing that ...

I felt so cold when I thought about PMR .


I couldn't sit down and study at all ...

I was distracted from day 1 , trying to push everything aside...

ARGHHH!!!



I forgot , I can't handle pressure . . .

I forgot to do something REALLY important...


ARGHHH


I'm taking into account what Gavin said to me over Skype that day while Dotaing , well , I know he didn't really mean it (or maybe he did) , but well , it's the truth ...."You can't get anything right ! "


Being left out , being a loner... well , it has it's pros and cons . I want to fully be back to Maple again , there , I think , even though those people I meet there will not be REAL friends , but heck ,
it's better than nothing .


You know...Hollywood and all them western influences tells us that in order to find Mr or Mrs right , the first few steps are to "fall in love" and to find the right person . But maybe HIS way is different ? What if he wants us to "walk in love " and to BE the right person first ? Ever thought of that ?