Mistakes .

Mistakes...

Everyone has made them .
The only important part is learning from them .

But as human beings , we tend to repeat the same mistakes OVER and OVER again .


Day by day I still regret telling you that I liked you (especially when the feeling was only 1 day old :O) .

I regret being involved in anything that has anything to do with
them .

I regret doing so many things , but I know that people are just... not that forgiving .

I held all the sad things in for too long , and now my perspective of the world is...crooked .


Nearly everyone is better than me in everything to me . Everyone to me is just as unforgiving as myself . I always think that my friends have been thinking negatively towards me . And by friends I mean by every single one of them .


So many people have been telling me the truth already , that I have to let it go....

I try my best to tolerate things , but inside I'm already exploding .
I try my best to forget about things but it's still there...
I've tried to be as nice as I can get , but I phail so many times .
I've tried to control every single emotion in me but I fail horribly .



And my Faith ? It's shattering . Breaking . After finally answering yes to the "Does God exist" question . I'm now at "If God exists , why Him(That particular faith)" .

I could've gone to the extent to seek Ivan or Iris out on this , but too bad I just couldn't care less about it anymore .

I feel as if I'm one of those people who "Just belief can oledi lah , can do whatever you wan" type of Christian . And yet since I was in Sunday School I was told that this isn't what I'm supposed to do...

Though even through all these circumstances I still feel as if he's still there .

It's like he's there but I think that he's not there....argh its complicated .




I'm a wreck...

I'm messed up...

I'm a failure...

I'm...Junk .