Explode .

Today , my parents went out to Bangsar to shop as my dad was going for a meeting or some sort .

No one got me lunch , so I just ate some maggi and walked my self to church hungry .

Grooming talk , interesting facts there... :P

After that tried to tell my mom via phone that I didn't want to go for a reunion dinner , was forced to leave early anyway .

Shouted on the phone to her right outside church when they were all the way at church house in the heavy rain . I wouldn't mind running there if it wasn't RAINING oh so heavily and they didn't notice me after 5 minutes of waving to them .

Got really mad in the car , given the fact that I don't have a choice about anything that happens ... I don't want to whine about it .

Anyway , my father almost got a stroke in the car (That's how serious things get when I argue with my parents) . So I decided to just keep quiet . Dinner , tried my best to not ruin everything because of my 70 year old grandmother .

She I tell you , cares for me more than my father , mother and sister combined . Sometimes it's annoying but still , her time is short , and yeah , I was flashed back to the times when I was still a child when I only saw my parents 2 hours per day and I saw my grandmother more than anyone else and how she would care for my well being so much . All the sacrifices she made... So it calmed me down .

Because of this my father finally decides to go for a check up after a church member of his church told him that judging by his ears and face that he might have a blocked artery .


I gotta learn how to be more tolerant whether I think I'm right or not .
I gotta get rid of the pride that's in me that makes me argue in situations where I know that even if I'm "right" , arguing will make me "wrong"
I gotta learn that Christianity isn't just about believing in a God and finding facts to support faith . It's not just about believing in something that can't be proven via the scientific method . It's not just about singing songs in church and trying to be a "good" person . The thing I'm lacking alot on is that I don't have the Love . I have to learn how to love people and accept them for who they are , and put them before me in every situation .
I gotta learn how to overcome this sin of not respecting my parents . A wise young lady once told me that I have to talk to my parents politely as no matter what , they have the authority .