Past hurts .

Okay this is gonna be my "EMO" post after not really being emo for awhile .


Well yeah , deeeep deeeep deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep down inside of me I'm still hurting just a little bit because of some past mistakes , and well , like always , forgiving and forgetting was never easy for me .

Maybe some people have hurt me without them knowing ...
I can't blame them .

But deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep inside I still feel the hatred , the need for vengeance and the anger .

I'm still , like before , unforgiving .

Or maybe it's like how we all put it ; "I forgive you , but I definitely won't forget what you did to me"

first of all , what does the word "Forgive" mean ?
for·give (fr-gv, fôr-)

v. for·gave (-gv), for·giv·en (-gvn), for·giv·ing, for·gives

v.tr.

1. To excuse for a fault or an offense; pardon.

2. To renounce anger or resentment against.

3. To absolve from payment of (a debt, for example).

Extracted from thefreedictionary.com

Anyhow , if you still remember those offenses and you're still angered by it , that means you haven't forgiven that particular offender of yours . Even though you say you do .

That's whats happening to me . I know that what this particular person did wasn't intended to hurt me , and that that person didn't know what would his/her decisions do to me . I say to myself everytime that I can't blame him/her , but deep down...
That cry for vengeance...
That calling to hatred...

How hard is it to forgive someone...
And then I think about all the times where I OFFENDED people , and where I was forgiven . Completely . And in situations where I can't forgive myself , ask them to forgive me one more time after a year after the event , they totally forgot about what happened...

And then there's God who payed the price for MY sins ...


If only there was a video titled "How to forgive someone completely" on YT ...

:)


Okay no more emo stuffs .


YUN LYNN ! THOU SHALT EAT MOARR!!!!
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