Soon and very soon .

The new worship setting in youth today was great .

The message was okay , although there was room for disagreements.


Alpha ministry wasn't what I expected it to be...

It turned out to be something far more interesting .

The discussion with Ben Teo at McD's was ... funny .

But to be completely honest with myself , I find myself no longer liking THAT person anymore...
Ever since we argued . I just lost it all .

Maybe I've got my mind on someone else . But that's not going to come forth so fast . School's starting , more work , more photography to do ...

And yet it's the little things that make me really happy . Having deep conversations with Li Yen , Kheng or Ivan gives me more joy than getting a new piece of equipment for my photography or my newly 80 DK...

I think there's more to life .


Another interesting thing about the sermon today was when Ps Malcolm talked about how the girl he used to like would consult him about her love issues and stuff...Especially about the guy she liked , which wasn't him .

How many of us have felt that way before ?

I have . And to be honest , it's like a dagger coated with poison through your heart sometimes .

But then again , getting a grip on yourself , being a real gentleman and do all you can to help that person seems to be like a new "discovery" ...

What is love when jealousy is involved ?
What is love when we get angry for not getting "liked" ?

Do you "earn" the love of your spouse ?
No you don't .



Also , I've been thinking about how I should serve or where I should serve...

I've never really received any sort of "calling" (Except my bud Fenoglios telling me that I should go into apologetics ...But I would only consider that after I go through this period of doubt) ...

Well I definitely feel some sort of calling towards the field of science , but that's certainly not easy at all .

I'm certainly not the "leader" material . I'm just your average shy kid , being afraid of everything , except I'm "gifted" with an extreme amount of curiousness .





So Ben Teo gave a few people the question "Among the people in the youth , which person of the opposite gender would you pick ?"

I didn't answer because I said that I still liked that person . But it's not gonna be there anymore...



But my honest answer to that question would be......





JENG JENG JENG !