Falling over and over again.

Over the past two weeks , there was three things that consistently bothered me in my mind...

1.The current situation of my faith.
2.Her
3.Suicide


They're all inter-connected .


I already told you that I think if I become a naturalist , suicide would be really rational.
And for number 2 , you know how bad things are going between me and her .


You know how this low self esteem is coming back to haunt me since two weeks ago.



There has to be more than this .