Life .

This is called the "serenity prayer" , something that relates to my current situation .

God,

Grant me the serenity;

To accept the things I cannot change;

The courage, to change the things I can;

And the wisdom, to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

Enjoying one moment at a time;

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;

Taking, as He did, this sinful world

As it is, not as I would have it;

Trusting that He will make all things right

If I surrender to His Will;

So that I may be reasonably happy in this life

And supremely happy with Him

Forever and ever in the next.

-William Spence


You're not the main cause of my problems lah ; At least , not directly .

I am the cause of my own problems , you aren't .

Maybe most of it involves you , but nothing was ever (maybe 1% of the time you were at fault but..) your fault .

I'm just a down , sad , depressed , ugly , stupid , uncaring , useless guy .

The damage done to myself is from myself , please do not misunderstand.

Maybe at times I do get frustrated and angry at you , but you're still special and dear to me regardless of whether or not I have any sort of feelings for you .


So maybe , like what Phei Fern said , that I should stop talking to you about your problems because every time I try to help I end up hurting you or I end up making things worse.

So maybe , like Di Wern said , that you'll always find me vaguely repulsive (In Tiek Yi's terms) no matter what I do .


But in the end , you're still that Mother Theressa best friend of mine .

So please , do cheer up .