Episode 2.

The best attack on the Problem of Evil is the "epistemic" one.

The one that goes something like "We are not in a position to know whether or not God has morally sufficient reasons to allow pain and suffering to happen"

The other one is that our purpose in life is not to be God's pet and etc.



To me, they are really logical answers to our age old question "If a loving God exists, why is there still so much pain and suffering in this world?"




There's a huge flaw in both the attacks on Problem of Evil if you asked me.




The problem is that they're both not emotionally satisfying.


Take my current circumstance for example ; I've been liking this person for a year plus now. And for four FREAKING times, she falls for my best friends, but not me. She doesn't think about how I feel and she doesn't understand how some of the things she says are so incoherent.



I myself know that a relationship now would might as well just harm me and this is more or less a petty "teen" issue. But when you add that with the fact that I've been facing low self esteem throughout my life...


I really feel like telling God :"Why are you rubbing salt in my wounds? Why are you making life sooo hard for me and so easy for others?"





This is one of the other things that C.S.Lewis says about faith.


Our feelings change. And our feelings might affect our reason.





I'd better erase her from my mind lest I fall.