Have I lost it all?

think tanking is not easy when your emotions are all jumbled up.



This desire in me...



It has to be get rid off sooner or later or I'll wound myself unnecessarily again.


The stupid fact that is that I'm stubborn enough to follow my emotions when I think about issues like these.


The rational part is that I myself know very strongly that I really have to let go of her sooner or later. And I've been told by many people that I'm far from good enough for her.

The irrational part is that I keep giving in to my emotions in thinking that I stand a chance.


But logically thinking, I don't.



I don't really believe in the notions of "The One", but I really like the idea of trying to be "The One" instead of finding "The One".


Problem is, I'm far from even being a good friend.



This is exactly what C.S.Lewis said about emotions going against your reason.





I'm sorry, I can't be PERFECT.


Love delights in truth.


The truth hurts. But do you love?