The joy and the pain.

It's like the tenth time I'm repeating a song and still not bored of it.


It still makes me feel guilty.

It's like it's telling me what I should do.

I miss being a child. Having so much free time, being able to do so many things...

Right now we're already having to be worried about our SPM, then it's college, then Uni , then onto our job.

Life isn't gonna get any easier I suppose.

But the real manipulated variable here is whether I'm going to be any tougher.



I'm also starting to miss being in a big church environment. Not that I don't like CBC anymore, in fact its there where I learned so much, sometimes the hard way too. Just that when I visited GT, it just brings me back to my childhood times, before all the gossip/fashion-requirements and etc. in church, when it was just Sunday School and adult service...

Not saying that GT doesn't have those problems, I don't know what really happens there anyway. In fact I think we won't know since their youth is so big that you wouldn't even know if someone new comes in.

Maybe I'll go there every second Sunday or whenever my sister goes so that I can follow her home via my parents after that and we can have lunch as a family so that I don't have to spend my own money :P (Money-mindedness at it's best)