broken hearted people '

I just came back from OU today , my family just adds to my depression , i feel like running away ...

I was getting a haircut from a thai lady which somehow is new to this profession i guess , and my mom went and say cut bottom short ....when i did not want it to be that short , so that lady , being a trainee of some sort (she did not even know how to use the razor machine properly , but i dont blame her ) and start cutting my hair until....My sister saw me and said " your hairstyle makes you look like a dog "

GEEZ , my sister in the car went on and gave me the "be thankful" lecture , i know that people are suffering , and i am greatful for what i have , although i dont really show it , but who is my sister to tell me that ? Shes spends WAYYYYYYY more money then me , and she wants to give me this lecture ? HYPOCRITE .

hopefully im going to OU again tomorow to watch TWILIGHT , alot of people say its nice but dissapointing because it wasnt on par with the book .

Anyway , im still in depression , well , if you think you can help , try it , i dont feel like anyones by my side anymore ,

John 15: something (forgot)

if the world hates you , remember that it hated me first .

Aaron made a sarcastic comment when i mentioned that this versed had helped me in the past , but well , he said that the world didnt hate him or some sort ...

Anyway , its just that i really feel that the whole world hates me , in church , in school .

Guess Danien was right after all , everyone does hate me .

PERIOD .

Oh yeah , FMZ , you still wanna compare results ? you kinda challenged me to it .

qwert

my last tuiton was just over , now its time to go to OU and do some junk food shopping .

well , i do hope i learn something from camp , and not be a part time christian .

i mean in every youth camp , its just so predictable .

meet at church > reach destination > night before last day of camp , people cry , bow down , pastor makes an altar calling . > after that , people dont sleep on the last night , its like a tradition . >go back to church , most of us slowly turn back to our normal lives and...

i just dont want that to happen to anyone , i for one. ...

i never broke down in any youth camps before , like in yi shiens camp , seeing people cry during worship . and im just stoning there. ...

iConfused '

iConfused ,

Alot of things in my mind now , i keep thinking that people i just met hate me , but , its not the first time , i kept having this ..this.. feeling , and most of the time it turns out to be true .

.

hate

I always get the feeling that someone loathes me , but ...

Sigh , been getting alot of that in my new church lately , i keep on thinking that people are wanting me out or ..


CRAP LAR , i dont know what to do , i dont have real friends to look to in need , mostly i just play and talk with them , but i never share bad times .

I've been praying for a friend i guess , but , i guess i haVe to pray harder .

i guess ...

i guess...

I hate myself , thats the truth on what i think about myself , i mean , my BEST FRIEND , doesnt bother about me at all ...

i sound like a whiny girl dont i ? geez , i need help , my only hope is by reading the bible , but i always FFK it .

Well , at least its not as bad as CMC , where my cellgroup people actually add oil into the fire .

here it comes again '

Today , i watched Amazing Grace in church ... and that feeling came again , the AS feeling .

Its like , MEGA CMC all over again .

My faith is hanging by a thread , if i dont do anything now , i will regret it soon .


Sorry to the people i hurt during my anti-social mood today . bye

PsP '

Haxed my psp today , after tuiton , (learnt about trigometrical something) about the tangents , sine's and cosines....
i forgot most of it , cause i didn't have enough sleep , anyway , next year pn molly is gonna teach a student with a royal bloodline ( Sultan's child's daughter) name is Tengku Kamarina ...kinda sounds like... ok nvm . she said her body guards will be waiting outside and her results are...AMAZING !

0~10 ^.^

went over to Andrew's after digital mall , me and benji went to Brother's Game to hack my psp , and the guy there was really friendly . Really cheap too . We had lunch at KfC next door . After that , my dad fetched us to Andrews , Fj , jh , me and benji were playing Monster hunter 2 freedom there , it was fun la . but i got left out cause i was a n00b . lol .

Fate of the uknown ?

O well , looking forward to my first guitar lessons , i bet you im gonna screw it up .

BIG TIME .

Anyway , having muscle strains everywhere now . Ouch .





ehhh Beatrice block me from her blog . roar .



KH : BBS spoilers

Terra = Ansem's apprentice Xehanort
Aqua and Ven and the lost two .

Owh '

Today Taekwando was really fun but extra tiring .

we had "TAG" sparring , you have to touch your partners shoulder or dodge his touch , one touch , 5 push-ups .

So my partner was this form 1 yellow belt , i made him push up 35 times , lol .

Simple And clean

Kingdom hearts birth by sleep and 358/2 days coming out next year !

Xion and Aqua looks awesome !

Vens attacking style is GREAT !



Well , im supposed to be taking up guitar lessons , but ....well my dad cant find a good place , or is lazy..

The battle

The Battle



ok so you think you know the world as it is , thats what i thought . until i saw this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wixTD33Yayw&feature=related

Viewed ? Surprised ? Shocked ? You should be , cause thats how the world is . You hardly see that in Malaysia do you ?

This is exactly what Paul was facing when he was preaching , pure wickedness .

Sodom and Gommorah ?

Sigh.... this is just an awful sight , and see those people preaching there ? Wow , those are the people who are fighting in the front line . Notice how they are mocked , insulted and spitted at .

The end is near .....i did not think about this until after watching this , its truly horrifying .

Hyper Hyper '

I cant sleep ! WHY ! WHY!

Today my internet was down (as usual) , it was up at 6pm .

I missed tuiton today because i overslept , later on , i went to my moms room and ordered mc donalds . I was watching TV the whole day until i heard my neigbour infront of me talking/gossiping . I turned back the curtains slightly to peek on what they were doing , turns out , she was having friends crashing over at her house . So i went back on watching Drake & Josh , i laughed out loud during a funny scene , during that moment , i heard my neighbours screaming out loud " MALAU ! "

I dont even know them , whats wrong with LOL-ING , dont tell me you never laughed in your life . SHEESH

UPDATES for the GMYDT !

GavinMingYangDotaTournament !

umm we currently only have 2 teams and some people on the waiting list .

Waiting list : LWX , Victor , Danien (gavin confirm with me please)


Anyway .

I might be going to gold coast , Australia .

Well i registered for the camp fees .

Today at church i was feeling so cold , and Di Wern was sitting next to me . I was so scared of her ... lol .

Somehow im really afraid to sit with girls in church . Dont know why .

Oh yeah , somehow i actually thought Zhe Xian was a really scary guy , but actually he's quite nice and friendly .

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Team ANGSANA stats ?

Kennyoong - Hunter/Nuker
Gavin-Farmer/pusher
Cmy- Team leader
Declan - Hunter/Feeder


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Sexual Arousal
Even people who are close to holiness gets horny , but some people go to their computers instead of seeking god during this moment .


QFT!!!

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Sejarah ?

Birch was killed on 2 November 1875 by a local Malay chief, Dato Maharajalela and his assistant Sepuntum by spearing him to death while he was taking his bath, nearby a river, in Pasir Salak, near today's Teluk Intan (Teluk Anson), because of his disrespect to the local custom and tradition, and conflict with local Malay chiefs.

Birch's assassination was ultimately due to the fact that he outlawed slavery in Perak. Dato Maharajalela, whose income depended on capturing and selling the indigenes of Perak or Orang Asli as slaves, was then incensed and plotted with some of the slave-traders to kill Birch by spearing him when he was taking his bath in the river.

In the aftermath of the event, the administration shifted to Taiping. Sultan Abdullah was deposed and sent to exile in Seychelles. Dato Maharajalela and others involved in the incident were hanged. ~wiki


(bolded) = Why are we honoring someone like Dato Maharaja Lela in our history books ?

Seriously , honoring him means supporting slavery .

According to our history books , the Britain's are evil , self-centered , greedy people . But who really changed this country for the better ?

Current team stats

Team Angsana
Gavin Ng(.Fury)
Tong Ken Yoong([K]enyOOng)
Choong Ming Yang (cmyman)
Declan Tan (SorryGav)
Kevin Leong2D(icy bliz)

Team Tiek Yi
Tiek Yi (lmaoster)
Ren Chi (.Burn)
Nam Yang(uknown)
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Come on people , we need more participants .

Updates for F2DT '

Game mode will be strictly -ap

It will be EPL style ( Ladder )

date might change if we get a poor attendance


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Not going taekwando today , due to rainy issues .

Streamyx is so slow.... i tried 23 times to DL Trickster Online but it all failed .

I mean , they wont let me off without disconnecting at 50% .

Friendster i either got hacked or kena bugged . . . I suddenly lost ALL of my friends . GEEZ

TAMAN SEA Dota Championship ''

Organized by : Gavin Ng Joon Wai 2Angsana08
Co-organizer :Chong Ming Yang 2Angsana08

Event date : 24th November 2008 (specific time not yet available)

Closing date to register : 23rd November 2008

How to register : Team Name :
Team Leader :
Team Members : xxxx(CLASS HERE)
Contact info :


Send to cmyman in Garena or funnycmy@hotmail.com or call 0122120989(GAVIN NG)

Requirements : Strictly for Form2's in SMK taman sea in the year of 2008


Game Rules(not confirmed) : Leaver = auto forfeit
Dc=Uknown
No Bd and MH

Game mode : 5v5 -ap OR -ar OR -sd

Registered teams :
Team ANGSANA : CMYMAN (ldr)
.Fury
SorryGav
KennYoong
(Free slot)


Team Tiek Yi : lmaoster(ldr)
.Burn
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Nam Yang
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NOTE : Game will be held with Garena .

Any questions please contact GAVIN NG @ 0122120989


Advertise :
Hi , Theres gonna be a Strictly Form2 Dota tournament on the 24th of november 2008 , for details please go to (my blog)

Random

its 4:14 A.M in the morning here as i am writing this . I played DOTA with Wei Xian using Skype earlier on , it was funny . I picked Enchantress , after getting my PT , me and WX were chatting on the microphone saying " Omg , enchan walk dam cute weyh " "i get what your talking about *wink*"HUH?dont think sick "

Nevertheless , we got OWNED .


My parents are forcing me to go on a vacation with them to GOLD COAST Australia , however , 13hours in the air will kill me ...as in...im clausterphobic and afraid of heights .... GG

STREAMYX '

I really LOVE our locel internet service provider(ISP) , streamyx had been giving me problems since i was 10 ! Their services always fails to please their customers . My average disconnection rate per day is around 12-13 times .



Oh ya , Fj ,if you have transport maybe we could go to OU or Digital Mall next week ?

BORED '

First full week of holidays = Boredom

I wanted to go out with Fj and Ben but i wont have transportation . Jun Hao will fetch me , however he has to leave by 9 in the morning , and church ends at 10 30 .

I have no choice , cant leave church THAT early .

Early this morning , i woke up and bathed , later , i went to the computer hoping my modem will light up . And it did . I spent my whole day Dota-ing . Nothing else .


Geez , my english sucks now.

NEW LAYOUT '

Finally figured out how to use blogskins.com

I KNOW ITS PINK !

But i like pink .

haha .

lol

Online personalilty '

Ok...i guess i was overdoing somethings , but , i just dont get it .

I am very very confused Lcx , but i dont wanna bother my leaders sometimes , i mean , everytime i had a question i would Text my YL or a friend , but somehow i kinda think im bothering them too much ?

Maybe im not practicing what im preaching . Yeahps , i admit , i have to improve on that .

But the Atheist Part really confused me .

between

"Do not fear " x356
and
"Let him slap you on the right "

And BTW , if any of you dont belief that god doesn't answer prayers , He did .

I was so naive not to notice some things , once i entered form 2, i started backsliding i guess...

WEll...

DOES ANYBODY HEAR ME ?

yes , someone does .

BUT IM STILL CONFUSED

Ouch '

Just came back from Ben's house , had a great time there .
now im dam tired , but i have to head for sejarah tuiton .

Geez . I wanna go out more .

First thing i gotta do is to hack my PSP , next save for a WII .

I just watched finished HEROES until the end of Episode 07 Season 3 , and if its the one thing i have learned from the show is that your "friends" might not turn out to be who they really are , and you might no know the hidden agenda behind your friendship .
So geez , i made it clear to myself , New friends doesn't equal = good friends .

A real friend will stab you before you explode and destroy the world , a traitor will run and say "None of my buisness "

OMG JASON CRIED FOR GETTING 60 !

Anyways , Since beatrice and Jason have been fighting on my cbox for a long while , just wanna dedicate a simple message to someone...

Atheist's

Lets start about them alright ? The word "A-The-ist" refers to a person who does not belief in the existence of god . In other words , they are cowards ,arrogant people who think they have unlimited knowledge , they go around in youtube bashing GOD , but seriously , what do they have to gain ? You wanna know why they're doing this ? Because they're afraid , come on , when you see a big black cave in a mountain , while your tour leader asks you not to go that way , and yet your curiosity makes you wanna go in there , but yet your instincts tell you something , therefore you go around the whole tour group telling people not to trust the leader and to follow you into the cave . They want affirmation , so that when their theories of god not existing was proved wrong after they die , they know that other people will join them , hence not feeling lonely .

Ehhh , Why is it so hard to believe in a loving GOD ?
Sure , he may cause sufferings to happen , but the reason he did this is because of YOU , because we asked for it .

Braces ?

Wearing braces just seems so freaking cool !

I mean you will end up with properly arranged teeth , and the pain rocks!

AND IM NOT BEING SARCASTIC !

Deborah started wearing braces , me , zi hao and her were talking then when she laughed...LOL , thats the bad thing , somore deb is getting glow in the dark braces ... lol....


Anyway....just wanna share a simple song which the Ambactus usually sing in cell ,

God so loved the world
That He gave
God so loved the world
That He gave His only Son

Worthy is The Lamb
That was slain
Worthy is The Lamb
That was slain

He's risen from the death
He is risen
He's high and lifted up
Heavens and earth adore


I gotta remember to register for youth camp , GEEZ i keep forgetting .

I also do hope that i get to a class with more friends next year ,
And that pn santhi would not be my teacher !

But if i do get her , well...





I WANNA GO OUT! BORED AT HOME!

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh

HAPPY LATE BDAY TIEK YI

Anti-Santhi v2

planning to start a new one after the old one was disbanded ,
there is actually a way to stop her from sue-ing us .

1.No vulgarities / Threats
2.Have solid proof and reason why we hate her
3. DONT FREAKING USE HER PICTURE (duh)
4.Sign a petition against her


Shes getting out of hand...

Seniors?

I dont like alot of my seniors .

Wanna know why ?

Cause i have Senior-PHobia lol .

Today was test day at TKD , i screwed up 2 punches . dang it . anyway , yun lynn was supposed to be our instructor , she asked us to go out in the hot sun and wait while she was taking her time thinking what are we gonna do .
10 minutes later....

white belts go back , i dunno how to teach you all .

The WB waited 15 mins in the hot sun for nuts...wow

Epic Fail'

My results are crap ok , lol dont ask me , but i dont blame anyone , just myself . lol .


Next year is serious time , no more last minute studying .

sheesh .


ahaha last day of school was fun , except that i had to copy 9 of my classmates peka report just because of the TUUT pn santhi .

Deborah got wet , badly , me kah weng and yik soon emptied like 5 litres of water in total ???

Final push for 2008 '

This week will be the last week of school , the last week of exams .

I got unsatisfying results from the current exams already :
Maths : either 74,75,76
Science :65+
English : 38/40 p1
Chinese : GG! aim=50
BM : GG! aim=50
Moral : GG! (aim : 50

My only hope if i want to achieve a goal of 65 average and above is by acing my Sejarah , Geo and Kh if i can , after chinese tuiton today , it will be my final strive to study .

Good luck to all .


My goals :
Maths : 80+ = Failed
Science : 70 +
English : 80+
Sejarah :90+
Moral : 50
BM : 50
Chinese : 50
arts:50
KH : 70
Geography :80

AVERAGE : 67 .

Love them like jesus '

The love of her life is drifting away
They're losing the fight for another day
The life that she's known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a child's broken heart

You're holding her hand, you're straining for words
You trying to make - sense of it all
She's desperate for hope, darkness clouding her view
She's looking to you

Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
Love her like Jesus
Love her like Jesus

The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to grey
As the little one slips away

You're holding their hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
They're desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
They're looking to you

Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus

Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all the nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you

So love them like Jesus, love them like Jesus
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
Love them like Jesus
Love them like Jesus

Now you know what to do dont you ?

Casting Crowns '

Casting Crowns is a great band . Their songs are not all worship but the others just mean so much , everyone praises god during happy times , but do we praise him in the storms ? Are we happy plastic people ? With smiles that hide our pain ? Jesus paid too much a price to let us to chose who gets saved , just listen to their songs on youtube , if you understand the lyrics , you will notice that theres something in your cell,youth,church thats mentioned in some of the songs...