Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Quizzies

You are 16% Emo!
 

You aren't emo at all. You like to see the brighter things in life, and if you have a favorite color, it certainly isn't black. You probably haven't a clue who Hawthorn Heights is.

How Emo Are You?
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oh gee... i had no idea ..




You know the Bible 76%!
 

Wow! You are truly a student of the Bible! Some of the questions were difficult, but they didn't slow you down! You know the books, the characters, the events . . . Very impressive!

Ultimate Bible Quiz
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WOHOO! i got an A by SMK TAMAN SEA standards , but i fail by Gods standards.





What is Your Super-Secret ability?
Your Result: Human Lie Detector
 

You are very lonely and sad most of the time. You don't have many friends to help you out. Your power is great, though. You can see when ANYONE is telling a lie. When problem strikes, you usually have a hard time dealing with it.

Mind Reading
 
Human Encyclopedia
 
Super Strength
 
Time Freezing
 
See The Future
 
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WOHOO!!!

2008-2009

2008 was a bad year , economy crisis , war , landslides , earthquakes , failures and more ...

I failed almost every goal i set for my self for 2008 , i dont want it to happen again.

2009 goals

I want to be spiritually and mentally mature
I want to be closer to him and clear my doubts
I want to aim for straight A's in my PMR
I want to study hard
I want to be a more friendlier person
I want to be a better friend
I want to learn the ways of a guitar
I want to be an influence
I want to control my anger
I want to be more cheerful
I want to be less irritating
I want to excel at my studies


I want ...and i hope ...I WILL !


Happy new year people !

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Sunway...

Woke up at 7 , was dead tired , met up with the people at KJ lrt station , first ride was some river rapid thing , really lame , but somehow only me and stephy got wet . second ride was some slide , it was fun ! Third was a log ride , i love log rides , but this one was so insecure , first time i sat with benji and CJ , i was in the middle , when we were going up , my hands were slipping , and my leg cramped as i was trying not to squish benji . Second was with WeiXian , Ivan and Cassie , oh gee , when i went down i screamed like a little girl , haha , ivan was laughing all the way .
Third was the Tomahawk , its a giant swing that goes 360 degrees . At first , i did not wanna go on that thing , but i was dragged in , i screamed as loud as i could , but somehow Cassie was singing :"womanizer , womanizer " when we were upside down ???
i sat on it for 3 times , on the 3rd time , wei xian chickened out before the ride started , i sat with ben , Bens leg hooked mine and he did not care , the G's cause his leg to squish mine so badly ! The Man infront of us said "your screamings hurt much more..." LOL .

Next we went to water world , Jojo did not wanna come...WHY LA JO?
first was the carpet slide , it was soooo fun , then we rented tubes and went to the long long pool , it was shallow and the ground was really pain , Benji and Cj did not ask for the tubes but THEY JUST HAD TO tip us over , when we tipped over , we hurt our knees , WeiXian got a big wound , ian cut his leg , i got a blue-black , THANKS BENJI AND CJ !

Later we went to Wai Sek Kai "Selera makan Ss2" we ate alot , and CJ was crapping the whole time , and i found out that Ben gets cranky when he is hungry .

Later JoJo and Jamie fetched us home , i stepped on dog poo...

haha . Thanks for the memories!

few things to remember : Me asking "Where is the dry land?"
Stephy and me can SCREAM

Monday, December 29, 2008

Lead me to the cross '

Im sorry Karina , you had problems and troubles already , and i just added to it . Im so sorry...

The holidays are ending , i dont know wether to cry or to laugh . I just realized that someone called me a BEEJ in one of my dear friends blog , oh well , some people just dont know the meaning of sarcasm , i pity him...But who art i to judge him .

Im going to Sunway Lagoon with some church members . We all had a big convo yesterday , Ivan admitted that he has a crush on SOMEONE , and everyone started spamming him , justin said "ivan likes lil girls " , lol , even Zhe Xian pressured him!

poor poor ivan .

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Give me your eye;s '

Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black tile
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos
All those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?

Chorus:
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me your heart for the once forgotten
yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide whats underneath
Theres a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
Too ashamed to tell his wife
Hes out of work
Hes buying time
all those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?

Chorus

Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me your heart for the once forgotten
yeah
yeah
yeah
yeah

Ive Been there a million times
A couple of million eyes
just move and pass me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
Well I want a second glance
So give me a second chance
To see the way you see the people all alone - Brandon heath

Why ?

I went to church today , felt abit tired cause i reached home yesterday at 12 30 am after the wedding . Today while worshiping , i just felt that i hated so many things , after session , i went down to talk with a few friends , i dont know why , i just felt so hateful of everyone and everything . Why ? Am i not supposed to love ? .

sigh....and YOU ! i know your feeling annoyed by me , well , sorry then , why dont you just tell me rather then showing some sign languages which you somehow think i wont understand ?

i need to calm down la....

WHY THE HECK AM I SO HATEFUL TODAY ?!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Swings and See-saws !

I woke up at 3 pm today , was talking with a very wise person until 6 am before i slept .

today im gonna be going to some wedding dinner of a cousin made unknown to me .

Why should i go to a wedding of an unknown relative ?

Hide me now '

Even with all the hindrances ....

Talked to Zhe Xian and Karina today .

i feel like a total atheist , asking them foolish questions , conjured by fools , and for a fool to fall for it .

Father , i know you are there , but , please remove this blockage , remove all these questions of sciences and "logic" , you are the master ....

Friday, December 26, 2008

J&K

Wow , i had no idea so many people saw the JoJo prank .

I did not meant for it to become a rumour! sorry JoJo , it was just meant to be a prank not to be misunderstood as a rumour !

SORRY KARINA , SORRY JOJO .

but i was fun , being childish was seriously fun , but it is irritating .

My com is really screwed up right now , o well , i do hope P1 comes to my place after my PMR .

Im gonna start studying right after new years day .

oh and ,

Bye Huey Lin , Bye King , have fun in NS!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

3Dahlia 09 '

Dear lord,
please guide me through the year of 2009 ,
please guide me through my PMR lord ,
please dont let this class be filled with discrimination and hate lord .
thank you for helping me realize lord , thank you , i pray all this in jesus name , amen .

my class list .

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courtesy of Michelle Yeoh

3Dahlia , im ready .

Lead me to the cross '

After complaining so much about my Christmas this year , i just realized , i had everything i wanted , a wii , a camera , yet im still complaining , while some of my friends cant even celebrate this day which is a blessed one , yet all of them are so happy , and fulfilled .
I

Im sorry lord ..

what a MERRY Christmas '

OH look , my parents just came back , and immediately started naggging at me just because i wanted to get them to buy lunch .


AWESOME CHRISTMAS .

Bad Day '

Its christmas , woke up , went to church , walked to school .

lets see , other then being placed in 3Dahlia with the same situation that i was facing last year (except this time , i have friends there ! thank you god !)

however , all of the notorious girls seem to be in my class...GG .

In church , there was this powerful Pastor , i couldnt really see much of his face since i was sitting behind Karina ...which is like...umm , fine im short . XD .

The pastor did an really unexpected altar calling and people started falling down , experiencing god , i almost did , but i resisted . i dont feel right . but what the pastor prayed for me was different , all of my problems , he somehow knew...

anyway , my class next year is 3Dahlia , and ALL of my real friends are at ABC classes...sigh...Merry christmas!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

TAG ' 150th post

still no camera cable . so... ill do this old tag by yun lynn which i forgot to do .

Tag...
tagged by Yun Lynn

1.What is it that bothers you the most?
Questions trying to prove the non-existence of god .

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
Blogging .

3. What kind of news do you read?
Umm , local news , just news lar .

4. What is your ultimate wish?
to be able to have abilities

5. Is there someone in your heart right now?
maybe

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Yes and no . and yes again

7. Are you afraid of pain ?
Pain keeps you alive , but i still fear it .

8. What do you feel like doing right now?
Play with my wii

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Eventually
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Yun Lynn:
1) Fight-ish
2) Near-Blackbelt
3) Short XD

11.What is your 6 most passionate(Treasured?) thing at this moment?(broken english)
To be honest , i dont know , i wish i could say god , but im just confused

12.What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
Well , she is bad....hehe
13.If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Japanese niku udon .

14. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
happy

15. What's your plan now?
To answer my calling (which i do not know of yet)

16. How do you see yourself in 5 years time?
i will be more free roaming !

17. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
Im not disabled , i can talk , read and walk .

18. If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
A weapon of choice ?

19. Use one word to describe yourself.
Negative

i tag:

1) Victor !!
2) Di wern
3) Karina .

and anyone else who is as bored as me . lol.

Save Australia '

Day 1 , December 16th 0500 hours

Woke up , took a limo and arrived at KLIA , met up with Aunt , cousin and Grandma .

Ate breakfast at Mcdonalds , boarded the flight MH140 .

In-Flight

Air sickness kicking in , felt real bad , annoyed by Grandmother , felt a massive headache during the landing in Sydney , took a transit flight to Brisbane .

Arrived at Chevron towers , greeted by a really friendly security guard named John .

Slept .

Day 2 . December 17th 0800 hours local time
The sun was shining bright already at 4Am . Had breakfast at the apartment , mom went to Coles to buy food .

Went to pacific fair to shop later on .

...


Day 3 - Dreamworld

Rode on my first roller coaster ride in dreamworld .



you know what ? this writing style is boring . Anyway , it was fun there , however , there wasnt anyone for me to talk with other then my oh-so arrogant and self-admiring sister . I sat on this ride called the spooky coaster (scooby-doo,movieworld) at first i thought it was a kiddy ride , but it turned out to be a backward going roller coaster which freaked me out . Bought a Wii , and a Camera , stuff was cheap there .

To explain my title , let me just start by saying that the people there are really ...OPEN . They allowed nudity and coarse language on NATIONAL TV , any child just surfing the channels would have been exposed easily .

I also saw the police taking down a drunkard/druggy on the streets , just after buying my Wii .

Pictures coming soon , just as soon as i find my cable .

Im back .

WITH A HEADACHE ,
I got a 6o$oz wooden stick , a nintendo Wii , an a 8.1mp camera for christmas in Australia , oh thank you god .

ill blog about my trip later , pictures too , my head hurts too much to talk right now.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Australia Day 4

HOT!! its really really hot here and um.. im at the internet booth at the tourist lounge at some giant shopping place , its really boring considering that there are no friends to ride anything with , play with here , no connections to the outer world .

Good stuff - weee , im getting a Wii !

Bad stuff - shopping shopping and more shopping , my sis , mom and relatives just cant stop shopping ...sigh .

37 degrees celcius now outside. wao .

oh well , im coming back on the ermm.. 22nd , most likely on the morning of the 23rd of december .

the people here are rather friendly , but its very very hot hot hot here .

its 2 Aussies every 15minutes on the internet ....so....ya....

ill blog more when i come back .

bye

Monday, December 15, 2008

Dedicated to Karina Wuan '

This post is dedicated to my friend Karina Wuan , since ill be gone when she comes back from camp , ill have to leave it here for her to see .

I was having a little talk with Daniel Joseph Tay , when...




Umm , click on the image to read it .

now that thats done , i can peacefully and happily finish my final preparations for the trip






















The whole thing was a joke , tehee.

My last post ?

IM SO SCARED !

Tomorrow morning (5am) to be precise , i will be heading for the airport .

I have no idea what the name of my flight is , all i know that its under Malaysia Airlines , after watching so many "Air crash investigation" series , kinda makes me wanna think , this could be my last post ever...

puipuipui , negativity , not good . lol . I was forced to go , i mean , im gonna miss the christmas party organized by the CbC youth , which is sad , and missing so many other things , JUST , to go to some place where i do not want to go .

But anyhow , i should be thankful that i have a chance to go overseas , and i PRAY , that nothing will happen during and after the trip .

Anyhow , just wanna leave a message IN CASE , something happens during the trip T.T

Merry Christmas to all i guess ....

Im happy , sad , excited and fearful right now .

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Faith under fire ?

According to bible geanology the earth is around 6000 years old .

But the dinosaurs and many stuff claim that the earth is billions of years old , atheists try to use science and prove that god doesnt exist .

CONFUSING .

Why '

More people start coming to me on msn and asked why did i quit Dowta .
Well , after camp , i just felt like it was a waste of time , it destroyed friendships , and lastly , i was addicted to it , i spent 8 hours a day on it , lifeless huh ?

I wasted time which i could have done so much , i screamed , i swore , everytime i disconnected , but after quitting , i seem to disconnect more often , yet i dont get pissed so much .

And so far , i have no regrets for quitting .

And to CMY , im not an extremist , i know that my god reigns , i know that he cares , i know that he loves you , i know he is the one true god .

Its not a religion , religion is just for people to do something to impress their diety , But now its what HE does for us , not vice versa i guess .

Its a personal relationship with me and him , not just doing something in favor of something from god , but its what he did .

but i guess this is where i need my Barnabas i guess.

Blessed Me !

I woke up sick today , unable to go to church , i had a horrible cold , and its just 2 days before my trip to Australia .

But it was raining today , and it made me wonder , if i went to church today , wont i be stuck at church now ? Usually i walk back from church , and it seems that it never rains , its never too hot .
But when i DONT go , it Rains , kinda makes me wanna think , how much he cares for a small little thing like me .

Thank you lord .

Saturday, December 13, 2008

TOJ '

Okay this is what i think , i said im looking for friends , but if you call talking to any random person being a friend . Well . Im looking for friends who are passionate and love god . I know , im not perfect , part of my imperfection is being gossiping , and yes i am trying to change . ]

Christian layout . I like it , if people avoid me for that , well its their problem , its a free world .

I dont mean to condemn people and act like a perfect person , but sometimes i do without noticing , because im an imperfectionist .

If HE asked me to remove his name from my blog , sure i did it , but its just really weird .

What ?

I just got a call from SOMEONE stating that his name cannot be displayed on my blog . Its not like i was criticizing him , or defaming him , i just stated that he was the person who stuck on the wall during youth camp . geez..

December 13th

2 more days to my Australia trip , im scared , im confused , im sick , literally . I cought a cold yesterday , with my nose blocked , i wont be able to enjoy the food there .

Im planning to get a Camera from the trip or maybe today , my father may plan to buy a new camera at australia so i get to keep his 8.1 mp one .

Almost a week without Dota , i feel bored , just bored , my internet keeps on dropping , and i still do not have a hobby !

Im planning to learn the guitar AFTER christmas due to timing issues , and maybe cycling after PMR , i live in an area isolated by main roads , so cycling is gonna be a problem , especially if i want to cycle all the way to church .

Walking is getting boring , the same polluted road , inhaling poisonous gasses .

My internet disconnects around 75% of the time . Downloading anything would be a meaningless effort .

Friday, December 12, 2008

Prosperity burger ?

I just had a Double Prosperity Burger , McFlurry Oreo , curly fries , 6 Pcs nugget and a large coke... i feel like exploding , the black pepper and the coke was...BOOM-ish .

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Day 3 '

Yes , its day 3 after camp and my quitting of DOTA , alot of people have been asking me why i quitted , its addictive , it destroys friendships , its a waste of time .

CMY started scolding me today for quitting Dota , i got persecuted by my friend ?


Anyway , putting that aside , im finding new friends , the Barnabas types , the group of friends i hang out with now , i got influenced by them , bad influence , i wasnt strong enough .

I thank you WeiXian for introducing me to CbC , they are bunch of nice people , even though some of them arent really that friendly , but im much worst . If i hadnt came to this youth camp , i think i would not be a believer anymore , if i did not attend cell , i wouldnt know anything much about him.

and lastly , back at my old church , the elder people never fail to scare me , i got "strangled" in church by a form 5-er in the OPEN by my sister's friend . How awesome is that ??? . The strangest thing is that no one bothered about me , but here , the elder people are reall nice people , their wise and they dont bully me lah.. lol .

Things about me which i want to change :
Stop my gossiping completely , especially when it comes to teachers .
Get rid of my "zhloa" disease
Be fluent in my english
Is having a low self-esteem good or bad ?
Stop being arrogant and self-centered
MY negativity...it hurts
To be closer to him

The pain that they suffer "

I just read a few blogs recently , i was bored , unable to sleep and finished quarreling with my sister which ended up to become a really funny debate .

I read the blogs of a few friends and of their families , and i was shocked , a child of god , suffering from a bad family background , and that person ? Friendly , god-loving and god-fearing . This just leads to the question " If there truly was a loving and caring god , why would his people suffer ?"

Frankly speaking , that question almost costed me my faith , but the thing is , people always ask "WHERE ARE YOU GOD WHEN I NEED YOU !?" but actually , he did not leave us , we left him .

Back to that friend of mine . I just admire the amount of faith that person has , to praise god even with so much trouble , to praise him in the storms .

The worst thing i ever suffered was... was... actually , getting scolding by my dad ?


This really touched me , reminds me of the song give thanks .


God has really blessed me , i was just too blind to see that , and what do i do with this blessing ?
Sure , i have this "fire" to spread the gospel sometimes , but when the time comes , not even in real life but in a chatroom with a friend , i failed him .

Degen "AURA"

Okay , i just wanted to let you people know that i have this "Aura" , especially in church , you know , everytime i sit next to a girl wether they are strangers or friends , i just feel really really scared and shy .

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Broken hearted people ' pt 2

Hey guys , im back from camp , i just have to say , i felt god's presence for the first time in my life , but the camp was just so disappointing , its Deja Vu all over again , since i did not know 80% of the people there , and people were just so...

They did not care , i mean , i was treated like some ..some... , all my current friends went out and hung out with their old KD friends , i did not want to join them because all they did was "nigger nigger" that just defeats the purpose of a church camp .

So i was like the super lonely guy in the camp lar , i even met some real bossy people , but i was annoying in the camp , guess i got the "zhloa" disease .

but other then that , Devotion and the Message was just awesome , i wannna go home...it changed my view of the prodigal son , and i had a wonderful and super friendly group called "legendary lefeu" everyone there was pretty nice i guess .

First day of camp -
Ate mcD in the morning , went to church , reached GVR , had an ice breaker game , we had to stick the lightest person on our team to the wall with cellophane tape , the catch is that the person would be standing on a chair , when the maximum time limit is reached , judges will pull the chair away from the persons feet , only someone and King stucked on .

Second day - "the prodigal son" no matter where you are in your life , how much sin you commited , you can always make the choice to go home to your father , and he will forgive .
ps , pastor talked about online games , i made a vow to quit dota once and for all .

Third day - i felt god's presence for the first time , though i did not break down , i just sat and prayed for a friend , i saw people breaking down , and one of them even screamed , thats just what happens when the Holy Spirit comes , its just a spooky yet awesome yet sad yet joyful feeling . I thanked Wei Xian for introdcing me to CbC , even though some of them might not be friendly , but hey , there are people who care .

Fourth day -alot of people did not sleep resulting in...


Shout outs ! : DANIEL LEONG , JULIUS ,DONG ,JOJO , JAMIE ,JOSEPH thanks guys .

Friday, December 5, 2008

Gone for the weekends '

will be at church camp located @ genting view resort

Tata

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Out of fuel '

I lost it yesterday , the thread , it almost broke.

Im abit calmed down now , and i give thanks to lord for that .

Yesterday , i cried myself to sleep , after almost breaking a toe , i just thought , why isnt there anyone beside me ? Why isnt there someone helping me ?Where is my shoulder to cry on?

Sometimes , the answer just stares me in the eyes , but i was just to ignorant to see it .

Still at war with my father , my sister secretly allowed me to access the internet .

I had weird dreams last night , really really weird yet happy and sad one .

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

OU '

Went to Ou with Gavin , Justin(gavin's brother), Cheese , we rushed and watched twilight .

it was not really nice , but ok ok la , the Dr.Cullen was the pro one .

After that , we went and ate at the ARENA , the customer service was HORRIBLE .

We went on and played pool , then to the arcade and bowling , i sucked at bowling .
Geez my score was... wait i have pictures .
notice all my 6's






























the 34 was mine .

anyway , Gavins dad fetched me home .



















sigh , still in the D mood ..

Monday, December 1, 2008

New layout '

Again , a new layout , this one is kinda scroll-ish , if you prefer the old 1 tell me .

Well , as soon as i get a new camera , im just gonna blog about everything that happens , i dont know why , but somehow , im still in that depressed and emo mood . Sigh .

Christmas is near , and im in the exact opposite of having christmas spirit .

Things just ...

O well .

2009 ,

I pray that this year , will be a blessed one , that i will get into a class , filled not with hate and prejudice , but well , something positive

2Dahlia was a pain . But i did learn something really important there ? Girls are not monsters . LOL

FF7 crisis core is such a sad sad game ...