The other promise '

I just heard that SHE knows about my crush on her . Sighhh.... I suck at keeping my own secrets . More stuff had been added into my oh so jumbled up mind now . I should have stuck with Joseph's plan a longggg time ago. It's just oh so hard to find someone with the appearances of YOU with such a cute attitude with it , yes , I'm talking about YOU , the only person I really liked , and it wasn't just another crush , YOU were the first girl who was ever friendly to me , you were actually there to listen to my oh so annoying whining . However , you didn't know HIM . . . I should have told you about him... Sure , I don't " Like " you anymore , but you were still the only one . . .


I really don't know what to do right now , not only does the person whom I admire know about the crush , yet she despises me for it . . . Well , it's time to face the harsh reality . Should I just confess ? And get it all off my back , never ever talking to her again ?


Pn.Carol was talking about the armory of Christ yesterday , our main defense comes from our shield , which is the Shield Of Faith . Frankly , all these things happening to me... Depression , anxiety , weary , doubts....they're all weapons of the dark one , and if they hit me , that means my shield has been " Broken " , in other words , my faith is...Gone ? To tell you the truth , I'm backsliding , even if I force myself to read the 2 chapters of the new testament daily before I sleep . . . What's the best way to restore my faith ? Well , in this MMO which I've been recently playing , when you're shield receives and overwhelming amount of damage , it breaks , and you'll have to re-cast the shield skill to turn it on . When you're shield breaks , you're open , open to ANY attack , whether it's a mere sting , or a massive stun lock combo , you're defenseless , the only way you can get rescued is by...someone casting a buff on you , after that you're free to re cast you're shield...(I'm such a geek)