Extreme lethargy !

I'm off to camp tomorrow ! I'll be back on Wednesday .

Camp isn't going to be fun I suppose , since Wei Xian , Yun Lynn , Samantha and some other SMKTS Taekwando people aren't going , and with the only people I DO know , who also dragged me to the camp being : Danush , Jason and Gavin (Who apparently are committee members , which means that I'm not going to be hanging out with them ) . Therefore , I'm going to have to make new friends there , which I suck at doing at camps , especially since this is only my SECOND regular camp other than Church camps or Cf camps .


I don't feel so good . . . I just ate a whole Meat Lover Canadian pizza , regular sized , along with some nuggets and potato wedges , along with like 1 litre of Coke ?

That's my appetite during depression ? o.o .

I guess I'm suffering from Extreme-Coke-Overdose disorder right now . haha .


Camp...Camp...CAMP!!!! I miss Peacehaven . . .

Those were the times...Waking up to a cold cold morning to take a nice hot shower , when everyone's either still sleeping or already up worshiping . Following Tze Yu , Rachel Law , Li Yen and Ben Kit everywhere they go...
Somehow , Cf Camp is like a place where you actually get away from most of the distractions , and just focus on fellowship and HIM .
I generally don't like our CF , but their camps are just awesome .
People put on their "Holy" caps there , where there isn't really much corruption up there (Excluding the first day , where all the Form3's gathered outside , and all the girls started SITTING on each other , and Rachel Law made a rather awkward remark =P ) .


The "Crush" thing is bothering me again...Oh gosh , I need help in this area .
I need to talk to a girl about this , seriously I do .
It's really pissing me off , it's been confusing me ...arghh .
No , not my sister . She will never understand , and in the end , she would just bring me down .

You know , sometimes , I just feel like looking up to heaven and ask :" Are you really there? "

My mind ... It knows of his existence , but something is just rejecting it , could it be because of my arrogance ? Could it be because I have turned my eyes away from him ? I need someone to talk to .


See you people on Wednesday .