Jesus take the wheel .

So in LEO Idol today , this girl called Sarah Siao . The judge asked her to sing Carrie Underwood's "Jesus take the wheel" , and she sang it really well because her voice really blended with it .

It reminded me of that song...

And well picture this :

We've all been Children . We sat at the backseat , letting our parents drive us wherever we go . But once we've grown , we have to take over the drivers seat . In my case , I'm going down a really horrible road , where I just can't seem to do anything right , where the light at the end of the tunnel just seems so illusive . We don't have our parents to drive us anymore ... But we do have someone sitting right next to you on the front seat . We all look to him only when we need him to help us with some stuff like taking care of phone calls , reading maps etc . But when we're driving down a narrow road where everything seems to be lost...

Jesus , take this wheel from me , please . I know that I've been doubting you ALOT , and that I've been really proud and arrogant . And that I've been looking for help from the wrong people at the wrong time , and that the friends which you've gave me , I mistreated them SO badly . But please , I really can't do this anymore.... I can't...

Yeah , I'm weak . I need a divine friend of mine to give me strength for my life because I KNOW for a fact that I can't possibly live without him after he was revealed to me over and over again in my life , whether I come up with any excuse to doubt him or not . Because a fool can't destroy God's glory just because he doesn't believe in him as much as a lunatic cannot destroy the sun by writing "darkness" on the wall . I don't just want him . I NEED him .

On a less religious note .


I think ...
I'm getting more annoying and untrustworthy by the minute .
This is what happens when you think of being an agnostic , and feel as if somethings ripped apart from you (I felt that exact same way when I thought of "disowning" my parents when I was a child...) and then you go on and say "It's my life . Mine . I can do whatever I want as long as it's not against the written law of my country" ...

I'm so sorry everyone


When I said that I would support you until everything is settled , I meant it . I kept my word .
I know that I've accused you for "lying" so many times , but that's just because I trust who you are more than what you say :P