Blessed

Today I was abit down when YW raised the "Surat Amaran" issue to my face again . I so felt like "Zhat-ing" him on the spot (Hey , just because he's my boss , that doesn't mean he doesn't have limits)

Then I thought , if this was announced (Along with the misunderstanding that I got caned , which I didn't) in the BK class , then the rumours would've probably been spread to every single CF-er that knows me .

So here's the thing ; Yes it's true , I , Declan Tan , received both a "Surat Amaran" and a "Borang D3" during the middle of my Form 2 year .

If you really want to know what happened (Broken crayons-,-) , just go look at my first ever post on this blog . Yes this blog was born of hatred and anger . Mind me if you do read it , you'll see who I was back then .

The thought came to me ; Is a student who's school testimonial that is "tainted" worthy of praising the most high God ?

I mean everyone's answer might be "Yes , we are all sinners" . But when you actually have a documentation of your trespassing (Like being on Parole or having a history in crime) , most people will still NOT trust you with things and all ...

I tried forgetting about it (Again) , it didn't bother me that much until the thought of people just not "trusting" me anymore , especially in terms of being someone who worships God and etc...

Then I remembered a video I watched ... It goes like this ;

King David , probably one of the famous people of God , was an adulterer . He slept with someone else's wife after voyeur-ishly watching her taking a bath . And he sent her husband to the front lines of a battle ...

Peter , who was one of Jesus's most devout disciples , DOUBTED Jesus , and left him just as Jesus predicted when he was handed over to Pilate .

We have Abraham with the Ishmael thing....

We have Samson ......


These people did wicked things , but the only difference from them compared to the wicked , is that they knew that they were wrong , and repented .

I think the question that I should ask myself now isn't "What I shouldn't have done" , but "What I should do"