More editorial crazyness .
Didn't expect to skip the whole day of school again , and yet I had to .
Pn Lee is probably furious that she hardly sees me and Yuen Wei in her classes...
Anyway today things were more crazy , and I didn't get to do much except playing with the combs and people with "Fashioned hairstyle"
The apologetic 'craze' is still within me . As much as I try to avoid this , I'm somehow 'forced' to look into issues like these .
If we won't grow up as possible , we're all doomed .
Tomorrow is Good Friday . The CF will be having a special session at the hall . And I might be going to Glad Tidings for their skit (If any) .
I'm having problems focusing on God again , no , I'm not going through one of those 'Serious doubts' moments again . Instead , I think , while other things HAVE been pulling me away from him , but there's been something else...
No man fades into the darkness in a day . It's a slow fade . And I'm afraid that this is exactly what is happening to me .
But then again deep down inside , I just KNOW , that if I were to fall , that my judgment will be heavier than even the heathen ... Why ? Because I've felt the Love of God before , because I've met people who really lived their lives for Him , because I know that I'm doing things which will obviously pull me away from him and cause a psychological reason for me to not believe in Him .
It's like being a lunatic who thinks he can put out the sun by scribbling 'darkness' on the wall .
It's time to put an end to all this , now that I'm officially 16 ....
I need an end to all this gossiping , an end to all these desires and greed . An end to my pride .
I've let so many people down . . .
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