Depression .

Well , Argentina lost 3-0 .


That sucks .

Well the only team I really support now is Spain .

Things....hardly go my way .


Why God , did you allow my faith to be challenged to it's very core , and my heart broken and shattered...?


A thousand questions I've asked and all you've responded .

But alas , I'm only half-done with the intellectual side of things . When emotionally , I can't hold on much longer .









I'm sorry , I've just been dealt too many blows in a too short period of time .

It's just , knowing things intellectually is different from knowing things emotionally .

I gave up trying to understand what billclute or RandyE was trying to point out in their messages ...

Maybe this whole SEARCH has drained me... Maybe I've focused so much on the intellectual side of things that I've let my emotional guard down .

We can respond to the Problem of Evil with all sorts of rebuttals , and yet , it's impact is not in the intellectual side of the question (Alvin Plantinga and William Lane Craig has lovingly disarmed it) , but the problem is the strongest when it hits you EMOTIONALLY ...


When I'm swarmed with issues and troubles , no one's ever there ... and no one will ever be .

All everyone could ever do is to say "Chill" , and yet , I'm not angry .

There's a difference between being utterly shattered and being consumed by anger inside , and I fall into the first category .


I don't mind putting on a smile or cracking a joke . But please , I had enough .

You chose to satisfy your anger over my well-being . Thanks alot .

This isn't the first time that you've chosen something trivial over the effects it will have on me .

Thanks alot .




It's time to emo...