If you know me well , you'll know that I'm not the type that would go on about how a certain song spoke to me to lift me up . Usually when I claim that something "spoke" to me , it will be when I'm going through the fire , or maybe when my mind is renewed when I discover new things .
But yesterday , in the dead of night , when all my MP was used up trying to console a certain friend , and instead , it backfired on me ...
So maybe I did end up being shattered . This though , isn't the first time I was faced with a situation like this , but it's just that this time , I was too tired , too worn out , to do anything about it and just take the full blow . I've only been getting at least 5-6 hours of sleep throughout the week (That's very little to me because my body needs at least 7 or else I'll be really lethargic the next day) , I also have been missing classes and homework again because of editorial board stuff , and people just expect me to take "good" pictures , when in fact , my pictures aren't good at all . Then there's my studies where I'm just so tired and lazy of trying to catch up (Especially in Chemistry) . Also , some issues that have been with me since I was young , and some issues that I've recently developed with a certain someone , issues that I thought I have settled within me , came back to haunt me yesterday night. My "search" itself , is really tiring .
And yet , while I was half-angry at God for letting me go through all these ...
There's this song , which lyrics (I look at a song based on the lyrics more) spoke to me .
So I sat down and thought...
Why am I striving these days ?
Why am I trying to earn grace ?
Why was I crying yesterday night ?
Why am I looking for love ?
Why am I still searching for that "person" ?
Where will I go without him ?
While I'm still really wounded , I think I'll manage .
Spain won btw .
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