Too marvelous for words.

You know what.

Today was one of those days where I doubted so hard till I wanted to give up.

But instead of giving me a quick answer,I got something really different.


I was thinking about God's omniscience btw.

But then again,I've been listening to classical Christian music lately,especially "I stand in awe of you"

While I was playing it on the guitar before I went for youth,I reflected upon the lyrics,and a part of the lyrics struck me ;

You are beautiful beyond description,
Who can grasp your infinite wisdom ?
Who can fathom the depth of your love ?




This might sound like cheap apologetics that you'd find easily on the internet.

But thinking about the times whereby I doubted so hard,I thought the answers I would get would be like "Just trust in God" , and yet I get lengthy replies with philosophical,theological and sometimes scientific content that strike me so hard...

I should really be more patient when seeking.I should really learn to be someone more like Dr.Ron Choong , someone who embraces the skeptical criticisms of Christianity yet doesn't lose hope,instead he goes all out for the answers...

Also today in Youth,I did not pay attention to PI Melissa at all as my mind was swayed.But then when she talked about A.W.Tozer,it caught me immediately.

I was supposed to get his book called The knowledge of the holy : God's divine attributes.




But I'm still not finished with N.T.Wright's and C.S.Lewis's books so yeah.I'll order it once I finish my current set of books.

Anyway,while we were in our groups,Ben Teo shared about what it MIGHT mean to love God.And,we all know 1 Cor 13,at least people like me who have attended Christian marriage dinners before.

But when Ivan said it,I pondered upon the first line...;

Love is patient.



It struck me since the current crisis I am in,relationship with God and with that special someone...


I've never been patient.

In the case of faith,I've always went :" GOD! If you love me,give me answers now!"



Hmm...