Here I am .

I was enjoying my Cabal session with Wei Han earlier on , I had 3 hours to play without any form of interruption . I ordered my Pizza and... A phone call comes , my Aunt wanted to come over to my house and Skype with the other members of the family from all across Malaysia and Singapore . It was an emergency regarding my Grandmother in Kuching's situation . I was pissed at first , they were talking , I was practicing "Ode To Joy" on my guitar and studying for my Maths examination coming up . Then my Aunt called me to the computer , with the Webcam on . It was a video conference between us and the family house at Kuching , the annoying little cousin Sam was there. I saw my really ill Grandmother . . She sat on the wheel chair , with one arm really swollen up and red , unable to go for dialysis when she really needed it , instead , all the family members had to make a decision whether to send her for an alternative Dialysis which will hurt much more . . . Or wait for the swollen-ness to heal . They chose to pray and wait for one week . She was so weak . . . She vomited blood earlier this week . . . She's 82 years old this year . And yet . . . Little Sam JUST HAD TO get hyper when everyone is so emotional and sad , she just starts screaming and shouting and saying random stuff at the sight of me , I can't blame her though . . .She's just five . . Though I wished they would give her more discipline . . . ANYWAY , my aunts were conferencing on Skype...They were trying to come up with a conclusion for my Grandmother . . . I wish I could have said it right . . . If It's his will to take her , she has to go . . . I'm not emotional right now , of cause I'm down . . . But not so bad . I still have to break the news to my father , I'd expect him to cry . I can't blame him , he loves his mother so much ... And I ?


All I can do now is pray for her . Several miracles had already occurred during the ordeal , I just hope that more will come , and that she will gain Salvation .


Please , I'm not forcing you to , but please , pray for her . I only see her once a year . . . I can't communicate with her much . But she's still my grandmother , she raised 12 children , she gave me the biggest ang pao every year . . .