You knew me .

If I loved him , I would've kept his commandments .
If I loved him , I wouldn't be depressed .
If I loved him , I would have went to Church .
If I loved him , I would have attended CF , not taking into account any discouragements , because HE is the greatest encouragement .
If I loved him , I wouldn't have teased and looked down on so many people .
If I loved him , I would've done so many things that I should've done .
If I loved him , I wouldn't do so many things that I shouldn't have done .


Sigh ,.

Hate/Curse me.

Forget my previous post , I was just too depressed/angry/discouraged .


I didn't attend church today , therefore not going for the VBS briefing .
Sorry guys .


Cf...Cf... I'm going to attend it ! I'm just going to have nothing to do with most of the Form 3's . Since they still have the cheeks to call themselves a "GANG" , then I'll let them be . Though I hope that my presence won't discourage any , if it does , then I'll stop going again .

A vulgar day '

forget what i said . just give me sometime to reflect

I am back !

Finally .

Sorry TC , I really got you there .

Me and my big mouth wei , I just got Rachel Cheng mad .

Later on , I exploded on Andrew .

SHEESH LAH . What's my problem ?

Wasn't it you , who wouldn't stop making disgusting jokes about her at tuition ?
and now I just tease you a little , you explode on me . Wth ?


For the Rachel case...
Sheesh , I just had to...Me and my freaking big mouth .

Declan's mood has now been changed to -> Emo .

And I'll never know , how much it cost , to see my sins upon that cross .

I gotta get my mind straight , I HAVE to stop thinking about HER .

It's a stupid crush , and yet it's what I'm thinking about most often . I know in my mind that it's just a feeling that would fade away soon , but my crazy heart just had to rebel .

Why I shouldn't think too much about this ?
1. She's with someone else .
2. It'll never work out .
3. It's distraction
4. It frustrates HER
5. It causes confusion in me , and we all know what confusion does to me .
6. It's leading me away from him . (Result of confusion)


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh!

Taking AirAsia back home , evening flight .

Love song for a saviour ?

Sometimes I wonder...Are love songs really worth it/real ?

I mean , some of the lyrics are just plain stupid , example :"I'll pull down the moon for you" I know that the writer isn't really meaning it , but can love really be expressed in thatway ?

Okay , almost every one knows who I'm having a massive crush on right ? Do you see me writing love songs or love posts to her ? No .

Because I don't love her , I mean , I can love her as a friend , just like I love the most of you . But there are different versions of love , like , Agape love(Divine love from God) , storge love , felio love and eros love . I forgot which one was which for the others , but if I'm not mistaken , the love between couples and love between friends are different . I guess I can say that that "love" between couples , are one step higher than of friends ?

All I'm having is a crush right now alright ? You people don't have to go so crazy over it okay ? I don't "LOVE" her , I love her .
(To the mentally challenged , it means that I don't love her with the love that is shared between couples , but I love her with the love among friends .


I can't even LOVE someone who agape loved me properly...

The pain game '

I got a goodnight's sleep yesterday .
And and... I got to eat my favourite Kuching-only dish today..Kueay Chap!

I wanna go home...and play Dota with the guys , or play abit of Maple or something .

I don't have the mood to blog about much .

I just can't stop thinking about one particular person right now...

1(x+y) = x+y

Ignore the weird title above .

My grandmother was buried today . We had to do some rather weird stuff . Like kneeling and standing and kneeling again , singing praises to HIM when the monks were chanting , walking for 2 miles with the coffin courier . . .

It was okay I guess , although THEY had more numbers . . . We know ultimately who was the victor in the end .

Rest in peace Ah Ma . . . Rest in peace .

Okay...RESULTS UPDATE !

Science : 80/100 (Rank unkown(Should get 1st since Eu Liang got less in his paper 2 ) , A . )
Maths : 77/100 (Rank 3rd , B)
Chinese : 19/40 (paper 1 , Ranked , Last in the whole China class)
Sejarah : 6x/100 (epic phail, B or C )
Kh : 50/100



Finally one "A" !
History was a big disappointment , but given that even Ming Yang got a B for it ...

Really disappointing mid-term results . I aimed for 4 a's and can probably only hit 2.



I WANT TO GO FOR THE CELEBRATION TOMORROW , AND TAEKWANDO !
I don't believe that I'm going to miss her performance....AGAIN .

The heart attracts .

I'm suddenly so depressed and confused again .

It all just ... happened .

It's like nostalgia . After I got a flashback here , I just felt so down . . .

It's like...misery in the silence . I can't explain myself right now , I suddenly feel that Christianity is just another religion...Now isit now ?

I'm talking about the one who was always there with me , the only one who knows how many strands of hair on my hair , the one who died on the cross just to redeem me and you .

But he calls me out of the darkness...
Here's a song that was sang at the wake ...

It was in hokkien , title "Kang wa ay chew " Which means hold my hand .
The lyrics were about how the author wanted to be reconciled with him , when he thought he couldn't hear him , and yet he still did , and yet he still held his hands .


I'm starting to lose interest in the beauty of somne's appearance right now , I mean , I still am , but it's fading , slowly but surely . Why am I being attracted to her heart now ? What is it that made me think that she has a good heart...I barely even know her !

Every tear I've cried .

Day 2/5 in Kuching , and I'm already suffering .

Being deprived of sleep , food and water ...

Not to mention sleep .

The whole house is filled with the smell of burning incense . My only source of entertainment is my PSP and my uncle's computer .

The beliefs of some people are getting really offensive now , I mean , my father is not allowed to be there when my Grandmother goes to her final resting place . Just because he was born in a certain year , so the toaist/budhists people think that it is bad luck for him and for her...And you know what's more ironic ? BOTH of them are Christians .

So basically , Kuching stinks , literally . My parents somehow EXPECT people to send their condolences ...

Whine whine whine whine and more whine .

Oh wow , the bed is ready , I can finally sleep now .

A tag I decided to do because I had nothing better to do .

Tagged by Samantha Ho .

Why I did this tag ? 1.Watched sesame street as a kid 2.Can speak a little tamil 3.has classical music on the phone(I know I'm weird)

001. Real Name: Declan Tan Yi Kai
002. Nickname(s): Dec , Decky , Ducky , Declina , and some other obscene nicknames
003. Age: Officially 15 on the 31st of March .
004. Horoscope: Don't believe in it
005. Gender: Male
006. Elementary: Tadika Yew Yee
007. Primary School: SJK(C)Puay Chai
008. Secondary School: SMK Taman S.E.A.
009. College: Not yet
010. Hair Colour: Black with a little brown
011. Hair Length: Uhhh ?
012. Loud or Quiet: Try me , rawr !
013. Sweats or Jeans : Sweats
014. Phone or Camera: DSLR ! I already have a good enough phone so yah.
015. Health Freak: A little
016. Drink or Smoke: None .
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Like duh .
018. Eat or Drink: Both
019. Piercings: NEVER!!!!
020. Tattoos: Won't even try it . (Excluding those kiddy tattoos which were stickers which I used to play with when I was growing up )
021. Social or Anti-Social: Depending on who I'm hanging out with
022. Righty or lefty: Righty
023. First piercing: Never did .
024. First relationship: Never
025. First Best Friend: Victor-ia ! LOL
026. First Award: Std 2 , second in class . =.=
027. First Kiss: No yet
028. First Pet: A hamster which ran away a long long time ago ?
029. First Big Vacation: Gold Coast , Australia .
030. First Love at first sight: =.= , I don't believe in love at first sight , how can you even love someone without not even knowing them ?
031. First Big Birthday: I love celebrating my birthday's real quiet so...
032. First Surgery : Not yet
033. First sport you joined: Badminton
034. Orange or Apple juice: Orange juice
035. Rock or Rap: Neither , but I would choose rock over rap
036. Country or Screamo: Country , I really dislike screamo's .
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Neither
039. Night or Day: Day
040. Sun or Moon: Moon
041. TV or Internet: Internet FTW!
042. Playstation or xbox: Playstation 3!
043. Kiss or hug: both .
044. Iguana or turtle: Iguana
045. Spider or bee: Spider
046. Fall or spring: What's what again ?
047. Limewire or iTunes: Itunes FTW!
048. Soccer or baseball: Soccer.
049. Eating: Japanese food
050. Drinking: Carbonated.
051. Excitement level: Depends...
052. I'm about to: Eat my kit kat
053. Listening to: None right now , the last song I listened to on my phone was Amazing Grace by Chris Tomlin
054. Plan for today: Read scripture for the funeral service
055. Waiting for: Saturday , so that I can finally go home
056. Energy Level: Normal , if you want to see me hyper , just give me a can of coke and you would never want to talk to me again .
057. Thinking of someone: Unfortunately , yes .
058. Want kids : "Be fruitful and multiply" ... YES
059. Want to get married: Yes , but it's all in his will .
060. When: When he say's so
061. How many kids do you want: Can't answer
062. Any name on the mind: IVAN EZRA ! LOLOL
065. Mellow future or wild: Huh?
066. Something you would never try: Drugs , smoking , suicide , pre-marital sex , heavy drinking etc.
067. When do you want to die: When he says so
067. Which is the better in the boy/girl you like(in the future):
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes.
069. Romantic or Funny: Funny , since hardly any girls have the power to make me laugh right now...
070. Shorter or Taller: Shorter .
071. Protective or Caring? Caring.
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: Spontaneous.
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: Arms
074. Sensitive or Loud: Loud!
075. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship.
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: Huh?
077. Muscular or normal: Muscular girl = GG!
078. Kissed a stranger: No.
079. Broken a bone: No
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Yes
081. Ran away from home: 3Meters away from home and I decided to come back
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: Yes , a knife . from my sister and a sword when my kakak suddenly went missing
083. Killed somebody: Yes , I've hated many .
084. Broken some one's heart: My relatives...
085. Had your heart broken: Not in BGR , but in other ways
086. Been arrested: No.
087. Cried when someone died: Yesterday .
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Once , last year .
089. Do you believe in Yourself: I am known to have issues of low-self esteem
090. Miracles: Have been occuring in my life alot
092. Heaven: Exists
094. Tooth Fairy: Doesn't exist
095. Kiss on the first date: never dateed
096. Angels: Are his servants
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? : Sigh , yes .
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now: I can't be greedy now can I?
099. Do you believe in God: YES YES YES ! It would be redundant to say no , because it would be like saying that you didn't believe that your father didn't existed
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

I tag !
1.IAN PETERSON LO!!!
2.DANIEL JOSEPH TAY TAY !
3.GohJoYee
4.ChongPheiFern
5.Jeremy Lai why kit kat ! LOL

The second day . . .

I got to sleep in my 3rd eldest aunt's aparment ! Thank you God ! After a good night sleep , only with a few leg cramps here and there for some reason , I woke up and took a refreshing shower .

So here I am , at the house again , blogging with my uncle's computer .

It's getting pretty boring around here , considering the fact that I can't go on youtube or anything . I'm planning to finish reading the book of Isaiah here , but I'm only at chapter 2 right now .

I miss home , I miss school , I miss my guitar (Sure , I suck at it , but at least I can play the intro of one of my favourite songs... BTW , any simple worship songs with tabs to give me ?)

Day one .

The "Budhist" funeral thing is starting , so I better be quick with my posts .


The takeoff of my flight was horrible .

BAD BAD turbulence .

I'm pretty upset right now , since it's like a fully fledged budhist funeral for a Christian lady .

Though I have quite alot to thank him about :
1.I survived the plane ride ! (As most of you would have known , one of my worst fears are of plane rides )
2.She passed peacefully .
3.I saw "Green pastures"
4.Little cousin didn't recognize me .
5.Amazing grace . X)
6.His timing is always the best , somehow , my grandmother passed away , just at the "Right" time . Immediately after I finished my exams , allowing my parents to have a one day break at the office to finish off their work , right when I had the most free periods...Perfecto !

Alright , I have a funeral ceremony to attend , bye guys .



Update :
Right after the budhists finished chanting , the Christian part of the family worshipped .

I'm sleeping in the nearest room to the coffin.

More updates :
Ah , a little peace and quiet . I'm reading scripture for the wake tomorrow I think...
I'm still unsure whether I would be comfortable sleeping in a guest room where little children have been trampling all over it's beds . . . And that it's next the nearest room to the coffin . I haven't even took my bath since I got on the plane till now . Of course I did take a shower before getting on the plane , but the plane was just plain dirty .

And about the flight back on saturday , I MIGHT or MIGHT NOT get the tickets . T.T .

My mother lagi best , nagging me like nobodies business , when I am already suffering over here .

Little cousins , little cousins ... How annoying can they get ?!







This post wasn't intended to offend anyone of any religion .



Hopefully , I'll get the chance to blog again tomorrow . OH NO! I forgot to bring my pimple cream . LOL !






Even when I was 300,000 + feet above the ground , your name still rang in my head...What's wrong with me ?

Auld lang syne .

I came back from school early , after Pn Teh Phaik Siam told me to pack up and to go home because my mom came .

Apparently , my mom has been in school for a long time , but the I only got the news at 12 p.m.

Suddenly Pn Teh told me :" Your grandmother passed away "

OH NO .

I handed my 90% done geo project to Kavin , and headed home .

I'm about to leave for the airport right now . Bye guys .

I'm should be back by Saturday , that means I can make it for the VBS practice hopefully .


Bye guys

We are freeee!

WLM giving me problems again . SIGH .


An average day at school today . Nothing special happened .

Except that I nearly FAINTED during assembly . I mean , I suddenly felt so dizzy and tired , my hands got numb and I was getting pale .

Wei Han . . . I shall not blog about that annoying munkie here . He starts using English words which he doesn't even know what the meaning is , and starts hurling it at peoples face . Seriously , he passed Maths , and he started saying " WAH ! FIRST TIME I PASS MATHS! " . So I was like "Wtv lah..." . He said that I had too much self-confidence and that I was arrogant ? Wtc ? Come on lah , you start saying real random and awkward stuff , and you expect people to listen ? He did way more annoying stuff today .
You know , I should really start ignoring the friends who only make me worst , but that would make me like everybody else ... I just don't know what to do . . . I'm getting influenced by THEM , seriously , it's getting really bad .
I got a B for maths .


Current results :
Science paper 1 : 30/40 (Ranked 1 with Eu Liang )
Maths (Total) : 77/100 B (Ranked 3 , with Yen Lin at second place with 78 , and with Yew Siing as the first with 81 )
Chinese Paper 1 : 19/40 (Ranked , last . LOL)

CF post '

SMK Taman SEA CF , a really great place . We are thankful that we even have a CF in our school . (WOAH , is this coming out from DECLAN ?! The dude who despises the CF?!)
Yes it is , I don't despise the CF itself , I just don't like the people in there .

Our BOD's are pretty good , we have a classroom to worship in . . . Everything seems perfect doesn't it ? But it's not , nothing is perfect .

This post is going to be about the reason why I rarely attend CF meetings and so forth .

Before CF , the students from the morning session would go for lunch at the canteen . This is the time when the cliques get rather obvious . It's not that they're wrong or anything , I don't really mind being quiet and eat my lunch alone , but the thing is that some of the say some things really loud or decide to indirectly insult you .

Later on , we would walk up to the CF classroom , and on the way , USHERS . Come on , if you would want to welcome us , come to us personally and welcome us , instead of "HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WELCOME TO CF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" So loud , which is so awkward sometimes , that it does the opposite of welcoming me .

During CF . The clique's show again , worshiping alone is also not a problem , except the fact when you get off pitched some times , the person next to you starts to stare at you .

The most annoying thing is that these people tend to think that people who are not in CF or aren't active in CF are not Christians or are Christians but they're backsliding . That's just insulting .

I'm not going to serve in CF , unless they're dying again , since they're attitude tells me that they're in perfect condition , and I'm not needed , then I won't go .

Apologetics , rants , arguments and broken hearts .

I'm so happy yet sad , for some reasons which I can't explain . It's the whole "Heart vs Mind" Thing again . Most of you would probably choose to listen to your heart rather than your mind , because in your heart lies all the emotions and your conscience , however , your heart is young , it can be wrong too . Your mind on the other hand is pure knowledge and common sense , I can say that it's apathetic . That's why your heart needs your mind , while your mind needs your heart . But the sad part is that both of them can really get into a conflict sometimes , choosing which to listen to is harder .

For example :

A wants to have make out with B , both of them are underage , but both of them are in "love" . In this generation , the mass media asks us to listen to our hearts , but in A and B's situation , their hearts are asking them to just make out . But their minds are telling them not to , to take into account the consequences of doing so . So...Who should they listen to ?


(BTW , when I say "HEART" , it's not literal)

According to the bible , Jesus is stronger than your heart , listening to him is the best in my case . HOWEVER , when you've strayed a little too far from him......

Here's an example of what I'm facing :
Koh Yi Ven , my heart tells me to hate her , my mind tells me to get higher marks than her or to do something to humiliate her , HOWEVER , Jesus asks me to love her(and everyone else for that matter) .

There you go , that's why you always see me in a really confused mood sometimes in school .

Okay getting out of that topic , my Geo project is due this Thursday , I am most likely able to finish it , all thanks to victor sending me his file . I'm sorry Jason and Phei Fern , I didn't know Jason took things seriously , thus getting insulted . Oh no .

Solitary new leaf progression - 8% .

Tags '

Rules & Regulations.
1. Do not copy the answers.
2. The tag questions must be 100% same
3. Tag people after doing the tag
4. You may tag the person back if you want to
5. Must be honest in everything.

I tag:
1. Karina
2. Daniel Joseph
3. Di Wern
4. Jo Yee
5. Ian P Lo
6. Samantha Ho
7. Candice
8. Di Wern
9. Sabrina
10. Jeremy

How do you know 1? [Karina]
Church !

What would you do if you never met 2? [Daniel Joseph]
A lot of chaos would happen

What would you do if 3 &4 dated you? [Jo Yee and Di Wern]
Joyee : She's too tall for me lah..
DiWern : Terlalu pendek...LOL . kidding .
Both would be nice . (My definition of date = going out as friends)
Would 5 & 6 make a good couple? [Ian P Lo & Samantha Ho]
Both of them have explosive Grammar capabilities , that talking to them makes me go check the dictionary . And I can NEVER , I repeat NEVER win an argument with them...So I'll say yes . =D

Do you know anything about 8 family? [Di Wern]
She has a brother who is taller than her....LOL

What do you think about number 9? [Sabrina]
Smart and Tall .

What language does 2 speak? [Daniel Joseph]
English & BM & Hokkien

Who is 1 going out with ? [Karina]
Do I really have to type out his name here?

How old is 4? [JoYee]
She's 15...

Who is 6's favorite singer? [Samantha Ho]
HERSELF ! XD (I wouldn't know)

Would you date 1? [Karina]
She's wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy older than me , so go figure .

Is 10 single? [Jeremy]
It has always been a mystery .

What is 9's last name? [Sabrina]
Peng !


Would you consider being in a relationship with 1? [Karina]
Again , she's wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy older than me , so go figure .

Which school does 7 go to? [Candice]
SMK Taman S.E.A.

What do you like about 3? [DiWern]
she's a good friend

Would you date number 5 if she/he ask you to? [Ian Lo]
I don't mind going out with him , if no homosexuality is involved =P

Who is number 10 to you? [Jeremy]
The super explosive friend

Do you love number 1,is he/she special to you? [Karina]
Yes , as a sister in christ AND as someone who helped me in my doubts before .

What is number 2 fav football team? [Daniel Joseph]
Stoke ! XP (I will never know)

Is number 7 cute? [Candice]
No. LOLOLOL

TAGGED BY JO YEEE

1. Who are you?
Declan

2. Are we friends?
I guess so X)

3. When and how did we meet?
Edu-Smart , the no "Nonsense" tuition

4. Did you like me at all?
Like as in how ?

5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
Joey . You know why . LOL

6. Describe me in one word.
TALLLLLLLLLLLL

7. What was your first impression of me?
TALLL

8. Do you still think that way about me now?
Maybe...I'm taller...Right ?


9. What reminds you of me?
Tuesdays , when Joon Wai get's all pokey

10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
Chocolates ?

11. How well do you know me?
I have no eye-deer

12. When's the last time you saw me?
Thursday ?

13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Okay okay...Confession time...ehem ehem...YOU'RE TALL !! LOL

14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
Huh?

15. What is my best attribute?
Studies

I wan to tag:
1. Karina
2. Daniel Joseph
3. Di Wern
4. Jo Yee
5. Ian P Lo
6. Samantha Ho
7. Candice
8. Di Wern
9. Sabrina
10. Jeremy


Two tags for everyone to do ! How fun !

Arguments and more arguments .

Well , there's been quite a hiccup with the whole "Homosexuality" thing again .

The last time I actually debated about this was when I was 12 in the ASF forums , and obviously , I lost , because I didn't know enough , to me , it was just ... wrong .

http://www.faithfacts.org/christ-and-the-culture/gay-rights

Go to the above URL to know more about Homosexuality and Christianity .

Homosexuality is deemed as sexual immorality or idolatry in the Bible I guess .

But what so wrong about them ?
Isn't it just another type of "LOVE" ?
There are even gay preachers and bishops , how can you say that Christianity forbids homosexuality ?
People are BORN with homosexuality ! How can you even deem it as a sin ?!!
You Christians always tell each other to love each other , and yet , why are there Christian hate groups against gays ? Gay bashing etc. etc. ?


http://www.faithfacts.org/christ-and-the-culture/gay-rights <- Find your answers here .


I remember something someone told me in the ASF forums ...
Love the sinner , hate the sin

After all , we're all sinners , and have fell short of the glory of God .

Epic Phail .

I didn't go for the VBS drama practice today , why ?

1.My grandmother , she left the hospital a few days ago , the doctor told my parents and some other relatives that she has very little time left , though he is unsure . She still has the oxygen tank with her at home .My parents are coming back today , because she hasn't...GONE...yet , but I'm supposed to be on standby to return to Kuching any day . When my parents return , I can most likely go out again , however , if my grandmother still lingers ... I might have to skip VBS or something...Sigh .

Cold cold world .

I live....In a cold ... Cold world....


Amazing grace is and always will be the most "encouraging" hymn ever .

Everytime I listen to it , whether it's the bagpipe , orchestra or contemporary version , it just tells you something inside of you . Thankfully , I learned chords today , and strumming . WITH MY FINGERS! Anyone have a really simple Tab for Amazing grace , kindly share it with me please ?

Guitaring is good for your fingers ! Seriously , having a thick finger skin on my fingertips are just so awesome !

Playing MapleStory will surely bring me back to the ye olde me .Introverted , anti-social and what else ? I didn't care about anyone but my Maple Character last time...I wish I could go back...

A new leaf .

I just spent 45 excruciating minutes trying to restore my computer after my sister dear nearly wiped off the whole computer . Maybe it wasn't her fault , but she WAS the last to use it . The only thing I lost is time and a 1.3Gb file I recently downloaded .

I needed to delete those posts , and make a new one .

Here's what I have to say


To Samantha and Darren ,
I don't deserve your forgiveness . Seriously I don't . I'm sorry for what happened today , I was already frustrated enough over some other thing , when Darren confused me with the "Customer customer" thing , which got me perasaan and thought of it real negatively . Samantha , I was lucky you didn't see the post I posted this afternoon , luckily Darren explained things later on , but do forgive my annoying ness , because frankly , all I have accomplished is laying burdens on your backs . Sorry , to the both of you . Sam , I need to have a little chat with you over something , do tell me when you're online .

To my other readers ,
I know I've been talking a lot about this "Jesus" dude lately . I do hope you know who he is . I think I should cut down on talking about "Religious" stuff here , since I'm not living it out , so I shouldn't be posting it .

To everyone else ,
After this exams , you might be seeing a different me . Why ? Because I just realized that I fail in life , in everything I do , I fail .




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May 22nd , 2009 .
I decided NOT to go for CF today . Even though the Mid-terms are over .
I might manage to get my A for history . Hopefully .
Every time I go to CF , all I get is discouragement , whether it's from a group of Form 3's who constantly looks down on me / loves gossiping about me , or from a particular person not wanting me there . Since they don't want me there , I won't go then .

Bull ****

The KH paper was kinda easy , I MIGHT get an A for this . I screwed art . A commotion happened , Cik Siti accused Nicole of copying this girl's art , I bet it was just a joke , because she didn't say "I report to your teacher" . Nicole , being the person she already is , said " Bullshit " . Cik Siti got mad and...

My class really sucks , oh yeah . The LLGuy gang already got Ms.Anne so pissed off , and they still have the cheeks to smile , now Cik Siti . Gawrsh . I don't remember pissing off any teacher...YET . Maybe I would to En.Nada , as I was sick on the deadline of my Pendokumentasian , I didn't pass it up . I haven't till today ... Good thing I have reasons or else...

Our class is already one of the most or else THE most notorious class in the Form 3's .

Wow .

My mom called , I rushed up to the computer room , and turned on Skype . They brought me and my sister into the room , where my Grandmother is lying (Still alive) . We were supposed to say our possibly last few words to her , I said : Jesus loves you , have a safe journey home , I love you . My sister cried and said wayy more emotional stuff . But I wasn't sad...Is it because I know where she is going ? Or is it because of my empathy ?


Sigh , crushing on an introvert , has never been easy . Crushing on a near black-belt , who has a way higher intelligence than you , is WAY harder . Conclusion , Crushes=Hard

Light and salt ?

You know , when Jesus said that we were the light and the salt of the world . He wasn't kidding .

Here's my testimony :
So it was a normal day , and I was doing something EVIL , MEAN or...NASTY . Well , it all stopped when I caught a glimpse of the "BARNABAS" . It just made me say :"Stop whatever you're doing right now . And no , it isn't cheating in an exam . It just made me think : Hmmm...If I was doing something DARK , and when I saw that BARNABAS AkA. Encourager of the light , and then the darkness went away ?

You guys wouldn't get this , but some of you would . ESPECIALLY YOU BNB ! RawR .


Oh cheese . Today as I was talking to some friends before school started , someone came along and said my name , some stranger along with...SOMEONE LAH ...Grr you for menfikir serong . It really made me think of how notorious I am lately . GG .

Well , I know of many people , friends especially , who come telling me that no one liked them before , or that they will never ever be liked back by the person whom they have a crush on . HOWEVER , I heard a confession from SOMEONE that that SOMEONE had a crush on this SOMEONE , when ironically , this SOMEONE , says that no one will ever have a crush on him . IT'S JUST SO FUNNY WHEN YOU FIND OUT WHO THE SOMEONE'S ARE .

Owned '

Maths paper was today was simple and tough . I struggled a little , and I might get a B for it...Sigh . But always expect the unexpected . I expected my science paper 1 to get around 20+ marks , because I really just shot some of them . HOWEVER , Cik Siti showed me my paper today , 30/40 ! Highest along with Eu Liang so far ... WEEEEE . Thank you GOD !

To you .

I used to think that you were just plain mean when you were really frustrated when guys started crushing on you . Now I understand why . Some of them seriously perverted your name ...

Am I ready ?

Another SMS from Kuching today , she asked me to pack and get ready .

Am I ready ?
To proclaim HIS name ? Even in this massive storm heading my way ? Even if I get a 0 for most of my subjects and get laughed at and be looked down upon ? To board a plane with only me and my sister , without any adult there with us ? For the passing of someone close ?

I pray lord , that you sustain her for just 4 more days . or 3 . Let your will be done.

Amazing grace .

Another day gone by without studying . I'm doomed .

Immaturity VS Childishness .

Well , it's just bothersome when people all around you are hurling words like " That guy dam immature " or " That guy dam childish " . The most ironic thing is that most of them can't even spell right . But then again . . . What is the definition of "Immature" and "Childish" ? Apparently , MANY people think that they're always more mature than the other , well , I hope this post may clarify somethings .

First , let's find out the meaning of the word , "Immature" and "Childish" .

immature
Adjective
1. not fully grown or developed
2. lacking wisdom, insight, or stability because of youth

childish
Adjective
1. immature or silly: childish fighting over who did what
2. of or like a child: childish illnesses

Okay , first of all , maturity doesn't just mean whether you're physically developed , but also mentally , emotionally and spiritually .

Someone who's mature would :-
Be tolerant
Have you ever met people who are older than you who are really patient ? Example : You know of your annoying nature , and yet , they didn't scold you once , instead , they sat down , and had a little chat with you . When in fights , they're the first to back down and apologize for their wrongs .

Be Reasonable
That person would be someone who can understand what situation that person is in , and how to react to it . For example , a bunch of friends were hurling jokes at each other , one of them felt offended and was getting angry , the mature person would be able to sense this , and stop the jokes at once , the immature one however , would continue joking on until...*BOOM* . He would also be able to speak with logic , even in an argument .

Be constructive
They would be constructive in their thoughts and criticism . You know the youths today don't you ? Many people who are aged 13-18 still swear and cuss every moment when they're not happy . You hear all the colorful language coming out of their mouths , even in public . Some of them even do it for fun . When they want to criticize someone , all they do is swear and cuss and swear again , without even pointing out their points of the criticism . Which is pointless really . Okay , this is getting hard to explain , let me just give you an comparison of a mature person and an immature one :-
When teacher sucks at teaching . . .
Immature : F!@# you C!@##$%B$@ useless mutha!@$@#$ ... dono how to teach don teach lah ! Ma!@$$ ...
Mature : Wow , this teacher is really bad at teaching , she could hardly speak English properly and she's teaching English . I think we should tell this to her nicely eh ?

Notice the difference , if the teacher hears about this , who would she most likely listen to ?


Not look down on others
Mature people would hardly call someone else an immature as an insult . Believe it or not , they themselves are able to understand the immaturity of others , and not blaming them for it , because they know that they would grow up one day . If they don't , they're just digging their own grave . Some of them would want to help , and in the end being childish just for the sake of reaching out to them , however , them immature fools would be ungrateful to them , calling them immature instead .

Learn to speak
Mature people wouldn't go : IiE aRe MaTuReS OwHx ! . I mean , if you're fully developed , why can't you even speak in a language which everyone understands ? It's rather ironic when so many of them "MATURE" people type like this :" GrOw up larhx ! Kid ! u so immature lah u . "


There are many more things that are able to define a mature person , but I wouldn't want to list them all out . I am by all means not calling myself a fully matured person , instead , I'm just proving my immaturity to the world . The only thing is that I might be a little less immature than some others . A little...

Dog '

Here's a very special post to someone who calls himself "Dog"


Apparently , he had nothing better to do in his childish times , he came in to YunLynn's cbox anonymously , and started scolding her . All he could do was cuss and swear cuss and swear... Your average immature kid . I bet his parents never gave him enough attention or something , I mean seriously , judging by the way you say things and swear , all you're telling me is :" I'm a kid who loves to swear , my parents didn't care for me enough , so I'm looking for you for attention " . FYI , If you're looking for attention , do it nicely , don't swear and cuss , alright BOY ?

Dumbell's or Dumbells .

Apparently , I'm one of the most least confident person for my English paper 2 . Apparently , people took it as a piece of cake . Not me...I might be a complete failure this mid-terms , but we'll see in the trials okay ? It seems that lots of people have a serious problem with me , see , they think of me as some retard who can't study and can't do anything right . So be it .

People like Eugene and Mahish , I mean , don't get me wrong , they're smart , but their arrogance is really bothersome . Eugene thinks that he is always right , and studies comes always first , anyone who gets lower average marks than him is considered inferior to him . Mahish on the other hand USES his friends like toothpicks , in the end , throwing them away , calling them "Stupid" . Osama bin Laden was smart , but look what people think of him .

I can't take the attitude of most of the Angsanians , Br-ians and Cempaka-ians . Most of them look down on people like me , showing me their snobbish face which is like saying "Hah! I'm smarter then you , go away from me you freak with no life!" The only way to know about someone's stupidity is by really knowing them , like for example , me and some of my friends , they aren't that BRIGHT , but they're by all means not STUPID . Even the CF-ers...Each time I tried hanging out with the Form3's , I always feel so unwelcome , why ? Because they are almost ALL from the higher-up class , and they start doing things that make you feel really unwelcome . Though they are a few of them , who are actually matured enough to figure out that results aren't everything .


Just another 5 minutes wasted on my rantings....

A little too not over you '

Disclaimer : This is another crush post , if you do not want to read it , don't . Read the post below this for updates about me .


You're hot and you're cold , I'm afraid of you , When everyone else tells me that you're the nicest girl they've ever met , you're the scariest crush I ever had (That rhymed )

You're uber smart , you're a Christian , you're cute , you're friendly .
And yet...I'm crazy , seriously I am .

Your joy is my strength .

I went to Taekwando today , didn't see anyone , only Teeng Chean and Wei Xian along with Keith , and some other guys . One of the masters came , we asked him whether we had lessons today , he said :"No one told me anything..." . We tried reaching the board , but my camera's zoom failed on me , so we couldn't read , so we just assumed that there was no Taekwando . Good assumption eh ? Considering the fact that it was already 8.30 and nothing started .

Got news from Kuching , my oh so saddened father and mother rushed to the airport to Kuching . Apparently , my grandma wanted to stop her drips and all , she said that she has lived a good life , and she wants to go home , I just pray and hope that she has really accepted him into her heart . I'll see you soon grandma , hopefully one day . Even though I could hardly understand what you were saying to me in Hokkien , I knew that you meant well , thank you for your huge ang pao's , although I didn't spend it wisely sometimes , but you still gave me more , thank you and goodbye .


I just hope that I don't have to make my way back there anytime soon , I hope I don't miss out on any of my exams , and I really hope I don't miss VBS , because you know how Ian is like when he's angry , GG .

It all comes down to this .

KOH YI VEN !

This post is dedicated to a very SPECIAL someone .

KOH YI VEN ,
You Nasi Lemak Bangla . I got enough of your nonsense , first , you send silly notes asking me to be your friend early in the year , I didn't get to read it , and thankfully I didn't . You TRIED stalking me , and obviously in the end gave up . So there I was minding my own business , and you just HAD to show your arrogant bitchy attitude to everyone , who are you who nearly failed your English , DARE to even compare with Kavindran who got 95 for his English . You think the whole world revolves around you huh ? You got caught for breaking 3 school rules at one shot by En Ravi , and in the end when you're supposed to be brought to the discipline room for interrogation , you took out your oh-so-cool tongue piercing and just threw it at the new boy . Do you know how disgusting that is ?! Oh wait , you're to retarded to understand even the simplest of common sense . You keep showing your tongue to people , thinking that your piercings are so cool , unfortunately for you , we are just DISGUSTED by it . So there you were , talking on your phone with that bitchy look on your face in the classroom , thinking that people would fear you and wouldn't report you , do you have any idea at all at HOW MANY TIMES we have tried to report you in ? So we finally did , and now , you're just blaming me ? Two days ago , you were walking with CJ and Chow Xin , I tried not to scold you or anything infront of them , I said hi to them , ignoring you , AND YET , you asked me and Kavindran to eat shit when you walked by in my face . Do you know how insulting that is to Kavin ? Assuming he doesn't know the other languages you speak , asking me to eat shit would be like asking me to eat you . Seriously , you Nasi Lemak Pie face , I wanted to be nice to everyone , but you just had to bring my prejudice for LaLa's back didn't you ? Furthermore , you make all the teachers look like dimwitts when you assumed that they all could speak Chinese .


Love your enemies...love your enemies...Chill....chill...ARghh...

CF DoA ?

Chinese paper was ... Awkward really . I literally spent 2 hours writing nonsense . I might pass though . English paper 2 was even AWKWARD . I wrote the shortest in my class for Section A , with a 133/122 words , section B was easy , and section C , I might as well forget about getting the highest in the class . With people like Kavin boasting to me about how easy the exam was . . . Seriously , I forgot to mention that Erik had a great singing talent , instead , I said that he was a mastermind , which can be accepted... If teacher accepted me as a sadist .

So there I was minding my own business while eating my lunch alone , with the Hyper Form 3 Cf Clique sitting a few tables away , and the "Im-smarter-than-you-pooh" Form 3 clique sitting behind me , it was just me starring blankly into Soon Zheng's face . Then there came along the "I talk manyak" Form 5 CF gang sitting next to me , my sister included .

CF time , Ice breaker , I was the only guy in the game group , and we were supposed to play "I never" . Where you state something that you have never done before , and the people who had done that thing which you mentioned earlier losing a life . Since I was the youngest GUY there , they owned me pretty bad... Until , I said :" I have never been into Cempaka Bunga Raya or Angasana before . Apparently , all those girls were pure science students , and I got like what , a quadruple kill . LOL

Then during the word , my sister's Form 5 Gang really got me mad there...sheesh .

McD's

I'm just back from a over-thrilled "Study" group session with the usual 3Dahlians . Those munkies would never learn how to behave themselves in public :P . Lots of funny stuff happened there , we spent more than 4 hours at McD . Basically , we hardly studied , it was more of have fun eating and laughing and starring at your reference book kinda thing X) . One thing that did get into our heads was our Science , seriously , if any of them fail their Science this term , I'm so screwing them up .


BM paper 2 was surprisingly...okay today . XD . I screwed Moral's essay questions , but I think I'll pass since 60% of the questions of pure common sense I got correct . . .

Tomorrow is Chinese p2 and English p2 . It's Doomsday .


Somehow , a mindless day at McD with them munkies really got my head off her . Maybe I should try it more often . *A note to self , make Keith do his hair properly BEFORE going out with him *

Ooops I did it again !

Image censored . Due to IvanAndHueyWern Relations ! AHAHahaha .

My childishness strikes back ! Ahahahahaahahahah.


















































To those people who don't know , this is just a prank , nothing real . This happened because I drank a big cup of coke and...

Angel of music .

I couldn't make it for school again today , although I felt well , I was lazy . AND...I still had a slight fever . I have to be willing enough to study today , then I'll have my study group tomorrow . If you read my previous post , you would have noticed that I am primarily focusing on four subjects , namely : History , English , Maths and Science . English , maths and science were my core subjects , but they never seem to go well in the terms exams . History is something new for me .

Oh yeah , just to clarify , I was never blaming HER for how I've been lately , I was merely blaming myself , and my feelings towards HER for it .

Well , in many cases , people think of God as ... Some backup or something . I have . But somehow or rather , I've noticed something . He is always there , he always does something and makes me say "You got me" . My grandmother in Kuching , her heart was too weak for dialysis , somehow , he worked another miracle on her , and now , she can perform dialysis again . Thank you GOD ! . I mean... It's like , how can anyone say that there is no God ?

Notice how God's tone changed against the Israelites when they said that they can keep the law all by themselves . The law isn't just some guideline or something , it's to show that we all need him , because it's impossible to keep it all , all by ourselves . I learned that from Ps.Mal's sermon last Sunday . See people ? Not sleeping during sermons can really help ! haha .

I should really be more mature when it comes to crushes . I know in my head that it's just another infatuation which might go away soon . I know in my head that God would set my path straight if I would just listen to him . . . I should really just say :" Hey...That girl is Cutee..." And stop right there . Nothing else . Not everyone can be as lucky as Joseph you know ... To be attracted to someone's inside before the outside is just a gift . To find someone who has a heart for HIM and has the looks too is a much different story .

The cry of my heart .

My head still hurts even after taking my medications . I tried gaming , it just doesn't help . Exams start this Thursday , will I prove THEM wrong ? Sorry for my over emotional post just now , I just had to release some of my anger here and there .

My aims for this mid-term .


SCIENCE : A satisfying A OR Highest in the class .
MATHS :An "A" .
English : A dominating "A"
Sejarah :A hopeful "A" would suffice
Geography: A nice B would do fine .
BM : A 60+B would do .
KH : B
China : I just wanna pass .


Average : 60 + . 65 + INCLUDING Chinese .

My head hurts , my stomach hurts . Ouch . Hopefully , I'm not going to School tomorrow , but if I don't go , I can't hand up my pendokumentasian . GG .

When your head starts to hurt .

I woke up with a diohreah or however yous spell it today , it got better once I went to school , however , after recess , I got a massive headache following a Fever . But by the grace of god , Pn Lee and Pn Nur Azlina were busy , so we had four free periods .


I'm just sick of it , my mind can tell me stuff which my heart cannot do/accept . Even though I was suffering because of my sickness , I STILL thought of her . I really really want to get YOU out of my head . I can barely think straight anymore , why can't I freaking accept the fact that no one will ever like me or something . . .


We got Koh Yi Ven's phone rampased by En.Nada . Finally . She was talking away on the phone IN class , we got annoyed by her arrogant attitude , and decided to report it to En.Nada . She seems to be only targetting me... Bring it on lah , I don't fear lala people , especially one's like you , who thinks that every teacher in this school knows how to speak Chinese , and who thinks your tongue piercing is so cool . What are you gonna do ? Get my phone rampased too? Sorry to burst your bubble , but I don't bring my phone to school .


I ought to turn my eyes upon Jesus , and stop thinking about HER . I mean... I've even looked at her as some man-eating monster or worst or something , but why is it still there ? Every time my thoughts ponder about this kinda stuff , somehow ,I would just stray far from Him... I mean , she probably has a boyfriend already or something , why the heck is this crush still here ?!

Studies , projects .... So many things on my mind right now , I barely have enough time to even touch my dear ELMO . I'm gonna waste more money at Music class now...



Oh yeah...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUN LYNN and RACHEL LAW ! and Hsu Wern .

eyer .

Another annoying day of my annoying self today . We all sat in our "Exam" seats . I later on went to Cempaka for Chinese class , Li Yen asked me to sit infront of her . I decided to move one place to the left , which is infront of Rachel Law because that window-side place was just too smelly . As I told them that it was smelly , they said to me " XXX sits there " . I replied : No wonder... . Gosh I'm mean . Study group this Thursday at Mc Donalds !

annoyance

sometimes , I just feel so annoying . I've been annoying many people lately...sorry guys and girls .



forgetting about you is hard . I've tried looking at you through hateful eyes... it ju
st doesn't work that way anymore .

Grr You .

Someone , who is my friend . IS REALLY TICKING ME OFF . WHAT KINDA PERFECTIONIST ARE YOU ? WE CREATED THAT BLOG FOR SOME FUN AND REVIEWS AND STUFF , AND YOU HAD TO BE THE OPTIMIST AND START BOSSING PEOPLE AROUND . UGH!

Okay...With that released...

Rehearsal today was canceled . So I have more time to start studying and finish my Pendokumentasian . There's a camp by the academy in Selayang which I am considering to go . Mid-terms is just around the corner , as students are rushing their projects and cramping last minute stuff in their mind . I'm here trying to relax my mind...

God is awesome . Believe that !


Upcoming events :-
VBS !
Family Day !
Mid-Terms !
Kena Marah day !




Oh yeah oh yeah , my sister might not be worship leading , so ... YESSS!!! No people in the house to prevent me from using the comp !

Awesome ?

Church - I'm just so annoyed by that "ATTACK" that occurs everytime during worship . . . And... For some reason , I just keep getting so disappointed at myself during Cell , and I get ticked off at a certain someone so easily ... Ugh . What's wrong with me ?

Taekwando - My kicks are going lower and lower...

School - Exams are coming....


I won't be updating much anymore , my dad decided to turn the parental controls "on"

Cf camp Pictures !

The pictures were out yesterday ! It really brings back memories.




(I know I look rather retarded)

It's not that simple is it now ?

Got more news from Kuching . It's just a matter of time I guess , my grandmother's heart is too weak for Dialysis . So I'm gonna have to go back soon , maybe during the mid-terms , I hope not . I'm praying for the best , but let his will be done .


I can't say that God didn't do anything , because he did , all the time , he brought my grandmother safely to the age of 82 , he has healed her many many times . . . My God reigns .


My sister want's to host her Worship practice for CF in my house . GG . I still remember my sister worship leading in CF camp , Ps.Julie laughed at her too . It was funny lah , but it was embarrassing .

Koh Yi Ven and the Noisy Gang of 3Dahlia are really getting on my nerves . Seriously . I'm supposed to love them though . . . I have to try. . .

CF , Dead or alive ?

I just came back from a deserted CF , very little attended . I'm sure it was because of the nearing or going on exams right ? Maybe not . I'll be posting more about this when I have the time , but know this . CF is going down if something isn't done .

Catholicism ?

Let me tell you people a joke I heard from Kevin Leong a few days back ... It goes like this :

A son wanted to "inherit" his father's car and drive , his father was a priest . So , he approached his father one day and asked him . His father said that he could get the car IF he : Cut his hair and Study the bible for a year .
The son happily did it . A year later , he approached his dad again .

Son : Dad , I've studied the bible , can I have the car yet?
Father : But you haven't cut your hair .
Son : See dad , I have studied the bible , and it seems that Moses , Noah even Jesus had long hair .
Father : Ah , but if you really studied it , you should know that they all WALKED .

hahahahahahahahaha


Anyway , speaaaaaking of priests . . . Which is something you wouldn't find in your average protestant church...

Well , it all started like this for me . I was 9 , me and my family were heading up to Genting Highlands , as my mom just hung up on the phone with her cousin , which is my Aunt , I then asked out of curiosity , "Ma ! What is Aunty XXXX's Religion ar ?" "She's a catholic . " She replied . I asked :" What's a Catholic " . They answered...:"Something like Christian but a bit different only , they pray to Mary "

So that was how I first heard the word "Catholic" . I always assumed that Catholics were like our "Allies" or something .

IT ALL CHANGED , on one fateful afternoon . I went to Centrepoint after church when I was about 12 years old . I bought a comic , by TheCrusaders . The word "Crusader" always attracted me ... So yeah.

I read about it , it was about Satan , and demonic stuff in this earth , I read a segment of the comic which said about one of the grandchildren of Noah called "N...something" Which turned out to become the Egyptian "Horus" , and his mother was "Isis" . As you all would have heard these names before , they were some ancient Egyptian "God" , turns out , That dude whose name started with N something , was so evil , that his uncle , one of Noah's four sons , killed him . I'm not too sure about this part , since it's been years since I read the book , why didn't I just take the comic back out and read ? Read on... And after that segment , the shocking part : The idols of Isis and Horus had been secretly transformed into something else....The statues of the Catholic Church , Mother Mary and Baby Jesus . That shocked me so bad , I was...Traumatized I could say , I asked my Dad , and he said some stuff which I didn't understand that time , he asked for the book , just so he could present it to his CellGroup for questions . Later on , he gave it back to me . I hid it so well , that until today , I can't find it anymore . I bought two comics , one of them came back into my hands , which was talking about rock music etc.etc.

So after that , I started being scared of Catholics , and to add to my point , I've even read of the evil of the Catholic church's doings in the past , and all it's controversies .

Then I started growing up , and I've decided to do my own research , I've met a few Catholic friends , but some of them couldn't really answer me well...Until one day , something brought me to someone's blog , and her intro read : ...Roman Catholic... . And from there , I started asking questions...

And the results ? Some of my assumptions and the rumors which I heard were either true , but with a different meaning behind it .

1. They do not think of the Holy Communion as "Bullshit" . Who ever said this must have misunderstood his friends .
2. They don't eat meat on Fridays , Yes I know , there was a verse where Jesus said that " Whatever that goes in you will not cause you filth , but it's whatever that comes out of you " Which could signify that we as Christians could eat anything . Yes , WE can eat anything , BUT , these people are FASTING meat . In honor of Good Friday .
3.They "Pray" to mother Mary , to intercede for them , but they still do pray to God directly . Why pray to Mary you ask ? Well , it turns out that they say that Jesus listens to his mother , and Jesus has never been a hypocrite , which means when he said "Honor thy father and mother" . He could have meant it in THAT way too . Again , this topic is controversial . Because according to some , Mary was just Jesus's earthly mother .
4.They confess their sins to the priest sometimes , in something called the Sacrament of confession (Not sure about this)
5.Their Bible consists of more books than our average Bible .

But that didn't really changed my viewpoint of them ... It's the process of "researching :P" That did . I came across Romans 14 in the process... And it says :

1Accept him whose faith is weak, without passing judgment on disputable matters. 2One man's faith allows him to eat everything, but another man, whose faith is weak, eats only vegetables. 3The man who eats everything must not look down on him who does not, and the man who does not eat everything must not condemn the man who does, for God has accepted him. 4Who are you to judge someone else's servant? To his own master he stands or falls. And he will stand, for the Lord is able to make him stand.

5One man considers one day more sacred than another; another man considers every day alike. Each one should be fully convinced in his own mind. 6He who regards one day as special, does so to the Lord. He who eats meat, eats to the Lord, for he gives thanks to God; and he who abstains, does so to the Lord and gives thanks to God. 7For none of us lives to himself alone and none of us dies to himself alone. 8If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.

9For this very reason, Christ died and returned to life so that he might be the Lord of both the dead and the living. 10You, then, why do you judge your brother? Or why do you look down on your brother? For we will all stand before God's judgment seat. 11It is written:
" 'As surely as I live,' says the Lord,
'every knee will bow before me;
every tongue will confess to God.' "[a] 12So then, each of us will give an account of himself to God.

13Therefore let us stop passing judgment on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in your brother's way. 14As one who is in the Lord Jesus, I am fully convinced that no food[b] is unclean in itself. But if anyone regards something as unclean, then for him it is unclean. 15If your brother is distressed because of what you eat, you are no longer acting in love. Do not by your eating destroy your brother for whom Christ died. 16Do not allow what you consider good to be spoken of as evil. 17For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, 18because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God and approved by men.

19Let us therefore make every effort to do what leads to peace and to mutual edification. 20Do not destroy the work of God for the sake of food. All food is clean, but it is wrong for a man to eat anything that causes someone else to stumble. 21It is better not to eat meat or drink wine or to do anything else that will cause your brother to fall.

22So whatever you believe about these things keep between yourself and God. Blessed is the man who does not condemn himself by what he approves. 23But the man who has doubts is condemned if he eats, because his eating is not from faith; and everything that does not come from faith is sin.


It might explain alot .

Catholics aren't DOOMED or anything , IF they accept and love HIM ! And obey HIM .

Sources , And thank you's - :
Wikipedia (En.wikipedia.org)
Samantha Ho (The person whom I have been bugging all the time with all these questions . Thank you . I met you in very very very weird circumstances. It all started with Benji naming his PSP at his Birthday party @ Shogun...That was funny. )
Daniel Joseph Tay (The encourager . The one who printed the whole wikipedia article out for me , Thanks)
Dominic Gan Bo Wei (That is , IF he brings his Catholic bible for me to read . =P )
BibleGateway.com

Bursting out in flames '

Addictions .
Temptations .
Confessions .



These are the three which are bothering me right now . I REALLY have to stop playing online games , and start project-ing or start studying . My 4A's goal HAS to be achieved for my mid-terms , or It'll do nuts to my confidence for the PMR .

Pain game .

You might be wondering why and how am I posting a post at this time , when I'm supposed to be at school .

It all started with a major insomnia attack last night , when I went to bed at 10.45p.m. , and only slept at 1A.M. . Later , I waked up with a flu , therefore , deciding not to go to school . Thus , ruining my perfect attendance this year . Oh well .


I have ALOT of time in my hands right now , I guess I'm off to study right now !

Dance floor anthem ?

There's a reason for me to mourn and dance at the same time , the reason to mourn are because of the following : I swore 3 times or more today...I got bombarded with more homework ...And I used the comp in secrecy again... . The reason why I should get up and dance ? 1. God is good all the time . 2. Annoying Li Yen is oh so fun ! 3.SOMEBODY looked smoking hawt today , get my definition of HAWT first. HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH.

Li Yen keeps teasing me about Rachel . GAH ! I just asked why Rachel was exploding behind me that's all .

Sorry to the people who had to hear me swear and cuss . . . I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today T.T

What is just oh so attractive about you ? I wouldn't know ! XD .

The march to the future .

This will be my last post in any blog until after my mid terms , during the holidays. Hardcore studying will start in a few hours , as I am going to spend the last of my internet hours watching "The passion of the Christ" .


Before I go , I would like to wish all my readers a good luck in their mid-term examinations , and have a joyful time studying !


God bless you all !

Being a part of the fegiggly business .

I just found out how NOT innocent some of the Form three's are . What's happening to my generation ? It seems that we're corrupted so badly...I mean , most of my sister's friends , not excluding herself , who I know are in the CF , and as far as I'm concerned , they are .... SICK .


Then there's been some crap happening with someone I know . Cheese . . . Girls are seriously complicated .

A moment ' ?

I didn't go for dinner with the youths today....Dang...It's almost a month now . They were planning to go to the Curve , which I couldn't .

I walked back home , only to hear that my parents had a late lunch , as they had just came back from Singapore . So I'm supposed to look for my own dinner now . . . great...

But believe me , he has his reasons alright . I came back , turned my Msn on , and got a few messages from a particular person . And boy was it serious . Huey Wern , PLEASE answer the text or come online !

Sorry SABBY ! I was supposed to pass you that book today !



I don't think I can help you much , I'll just be your "Guardian Angel" then . Something just tells me that you're hurting inside...

Take one dough !

Taekwando was rather awkward and boring today , Master was late , so Aiman(that's his name right ?) Took over awhile . Jessica let us , the yellow belts . It was kinda boring , considering the fact that we were practically doing the same thing over and over again . Next up , the PIBG chairman of our school came , and gave out our certificates . I'm officially a Yellow Senior ! I walked back after that .

Sudden Attack '

I've been playing and got hooked to this online game lately , it's called SuddenAttack . You can see my review of it here . . The graphics sucks , period . But there's just something oh so addictive about it .
(Me spectating someone)
On a side note , anyone realized how Friendster has became a home to the Lala's ? I mean seriously , TrY TaLkInG LieekS ThAt F0r aWhiLiEx .... Gosh , that was irritating . I mean , as Wei Xian said , people like them...It's like , their parents never loved them enough or something , why are they so desperate for attention ? Don't even talk to me about lala poses . Koh Yi Ven camwhored during Chinese class , with a super lala pose , I felt like vomiting . Her tongue piercing made her ugly enough ... THE WORST PART IS , THEY DON'T EVEN REALIZE THAT THEY'RE LALA . Oh gosh...

It's a wonderful day .

May 1st 2009 ,
It's labor's day , so happy labor's day people !


I spent my whole day yesterday Gaming and blogging , and I think I'm gonna do the same today . *Thinks about studies* Maybe half-day .

I woke up this morning *Or afternoon* with a lot of thoughts in my head , some of those old discouragements , but I quickly forgot about it .